my personel story

happi always

2009-01-27T19:53:00.002+08:00

happy new yr to all viewer!!!
wish all of u stong like a bull!!!
Muacks!!!
wish all singles will find their true love!!!
wish all student pass with flyin colours!!!
wish all married have a nue bao bao !!!
wish all employee ' Bu Bu Gao Shen'!!!
wish wish wish!!!

happy always!!!

happy new year

2008-12-31T20:57:00.007+08:00

HAPPY NEW YR TO ALL!!!
MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE IN COMING 2009!!!
I MISS U PPL LOTS LOTS LOTS!!!
I LOVE MY BUGS BUNNY N WENT WEN LOTS LOTS!!!
I LOVE MY BABY LOTS LOTS!!!
I LOVE MY FAMILY LOTS LOTS!!!
I LOVE U PPL I NOE LOTS LOTS!!!

so sian... don feel like workin any more.
but i promise tt after today i will work with no leaves.
jia you suwen!!!

new yr approachin n i don noe wad to buy!!!
wad kind of theme i wan to bring out?
hhaa.. vexed!!

My dar n i doin great, need nt worry!!!
Muack, thank you for concern...

i will try to post entry/ photo 3 times per week k!!
miss u ppl..

* yi lin n mi*

#Guess whether they have been eaten#

^My baby Bunny^

tired

2008-12-22T15:52:00.001+08:00

tired```

exam over

2008-12-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

=)) finally can play hard hard le. no exam for 6 month.
haha..
was unable to tranfer my photo to the computer. i will try k. muack...
something botherin mi thou...
haha..
hope i m thinkin too much!!

HAPYY 8TH MONTH ANIVERSARY TO HONEY BEE!!!
MUACK!!!
WE MUST HAVE FOREVER 8 MONTH K!!!
MUACK!!!

tiring

2008-11-24T10:10:00.002+08:00

tiring months.
no mood to work!!
feel like convert back to full time study.
but if i do so, my allowance will be cut down a thousand.
hehe. i enjoy spending money.
hope i wont be such a spender when i gt married.
hmmm...tired n didnt sleep well.

havin exam soon..
hope i pass.
i must pass.

realise tt im v fortunate to meet some1 who r meant for mi.
recently, heard alots of unhappy r/s. so worry.
but honey eased my worries. hahaha. muack...

u noe wad i heard?
alots of r/s will faced a challenge when it comes to the 9th years.
so worry. hahaha
all my friends who face tt prob are living in hell.
they try ways to commit suicide, depression n so on.
hope they recover soon n fast.

womens = kou shi xin fei
men= once decided, wont reverse

hhaha...
miss all my buggies..
hope they doin just great.
i noe they surely miss mi deadly de.
hhahaa..
i'll always b ard when one need mi!!!
muackz to all buggies!!!!

ohya!! i finally cut my hair.
alot of comments poppingg.
but i n my baby love it can le.
hahah...
not bad lookin la. its beautiful de lo.
HHaa...

meet out real soon k.
voyage!!

ATTENTION!!!

2008-10-26T19:53:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION to all viewer!!!
havin an important qns to ask.

hmmm... should i cut short my hair like hebe in the debut bull fighting??
nice on mi???
ANY COMMENTS? PLEASE RAISE comments.. i appreciate very much.
THANK YOU VERY!!!

vexed

2008-09-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

nowadays workin workin n workin!
Oso nt forgetting datin with my baby.
he almost everyday send mi hm from work.
tts so sweet of him lol.
Muack!!!

Have a small gatherin with my sec sch buddy last wed.
the feelin is weird. deserted. but at least st make mi feel better. haha
hmmm... after tt day, my mood swing often.
sorry dear!
No idea why oso. maybe tired of everythings again.
my thinkin cap works again n again.
i realised i change alot.
No more the natural mi infront of ppl.
But at least in front of my dear, i m who i m.
i tend to throw temper n childish in front of dear.
he accepted n never put mi away.
but i find myself terrible, pushin him away n sayin those hurtful stuff.
hope/ must he stand mi.
love him lots lots.

exam comin again.
must score colour.
must stop OT n study more.

My 21ST comin wor.
Any surprises??
haha...

S'pore Flyer

2008-09-11T08:52:00.003+08:00

^ mi n hubby ^

*opps!!!*

sweet dear!!

2008-06-22T23:43:00.004+08:00

This lovely set is done by my lovely lao gong!!! Love him lots!!!

Mi n Dear !!! lovely couple !!! I love dear lots lots !!!

Hmmm.. being with dear for almost 3 mths le (2mths 16 days)!!! Many things happened !! go tru quarrelment , dispute , happy moment , lovely moment !!!
i find tt i really love this man alot!!! he bring mi laughter n joy n sadness n worries!!! So wanting to b with this man 4eva! can we?

so worry tt he will lose the feeling like my ex!!!

i n dear chat alot always n im sure he wont b like my ex..
he gave mi sense of security ..
i love dear lots!!!

My sch starting ard 2/7!!!
sianz!!
didnt really enjoy my holiday lo!!!
work work work!!!
maybe changing a new company!!
still considering!!

Miss Seasons ;shuting ;yiling; my kaplan gals lots lots!!!
miss my deary lots too!!!

眼淚笑了

2008-06-22T18:11:00.001+08:00

*LYRICS:
比想象中更痛你真的沒回頭
我命令眼淚不許失控
回憶不跟你走都擠在我心中
我就有責任讓它值得被珍重
*謝謝你曾讓我難過謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候
我眼淚都笑了誰還想哭呢
再勇敢的站著找回光和熱
面對你的時候我不會捨不得
因爲你已是過客
因爲路有些曲折*
是美的
心碎成了沙漠就快開鑿綠洲
我沒有時間不知所措
你溫柔的雙手本就不屬於我
又何必在乎它以後屬於誰呢
REPEAT *
我眼淚都笑了誰還會哭呢
來不及完美的就唱首驪歌
想起你的時候我不是卑微的
反而我沒有遺憾
因爲我已愛過你
深深的

i love him !!

2008-05-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

Realise tt i love my dear lotsa!!
he is always the 'Mr good guy' tt i cant resist to love him more.
maybe i m meant to b his!
hahah...

1 thing i always feel bad!
he spent alot $$ on mi!!
hehe...

rmb last weekend we went to suntec, he used ard 30 bucks to catch mi a minnie , 2 winnie the pooh.
im touched actually.. hehe
but i worry i will finish his money leh.. wad a thinking lo!! haha

buy clothing, he pay. i feel bad.
he treats mi excellent..
i will treat him gd n true too..
maybe i shld settle down oso..

exam approachin... i must go tru ..
last sem wad module shld i take?
mon den go reg ba..
haha..
maybe either takin yvonne class o ...
thinkin cap on!
okok .. nw i go chiong my exam le..
tc viewer!!

i love him!

2008-05-04T23:08:00.002+08:00

history will nt be repeated.
i believe myself.
i believe wad i doin is worthwhile.
no obstrution.
unless he the 1 who call for an end.
3rd parties wont easily influence mi.

really happy he such a thoughtful 1.
wont compare.
he cant b compared.

tired

2008-04-12T01:25:00.002+08:00

finally can spare abit time doin my blog.
haha...
tons of sch work n job work waitin for mi.
exam on june but nt yet touch.
erm... busy busy busy.

all above mentioned above sound routine.
haha..

maybe by sayin im in a r/s nw.
this sound more 'hot topic'.
haha...
he treat mi gd .
he too gd le until i don noe wad to do lo.
hehe...

wad i can say nw is miss him much much.
hehe...
his shoulder is jus wad i want.
haha..

so sleepy...

memorable

2008-03-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

On the 20th march,
seasons appeared at somerset control to surprise mi!
im shocked n touched.
we went to cut my fav cheese cake at the powerhse there.
i got a selection of alot of "male" ...
haha...
love seasons lotsa!!!

Not forgetting,
My kaplan friends bought mi a aroma perfume...
long of buyin 1 but 'she bu de'!
haha.. love these friends lots..

On the 21st,
meet cindy...
N received my 3 presents from her...
winnie the pooh, 'heart' shaped necklace n a beautiful comfy bag.
love love love...
hahaa.
she even acc mi to 900 plus to cut hair.
BUT maybe my expectation is too high le la.
i wan trim but the result is short till shoulder length...
i was stunned..

THEN went to 'signature' @ my hse there de.
the guy trimed my hair.
now more presentable.
KAWAII...
haha...

BUT i feel tt i look like wad i m in sec sch again.
...

maybe u ppl comments ba. haha

i took my current 1 in pj... so pls don mind... hahaa..
which is nicer?? haha.

love still there o just friend?

2008-03-20T00:53:00.002+08:00

he never forget to wish mi on my bday.
even these 2 yrs, he didnt forget to.
this touches mi abit.
but...

haha...
today my 20th bday.
haha...
feel nth at all.
work n study till i v tired.
luckily friday no work, can go cut my hair le. hehe.

my bday wish?
hope tt i will always b myself.=)

drifting

2008-03-15T12:31:00.002+08:00

drifted!
alone!
being sentenced!
busy!
tired!

Were isolated by!
were left alone!

hahah... there is nothing called 'forever'!
neither friends nor love!
feeling is run by communication.
if nt, there is nth.

hmmm.. bday arriving..
feelin more lonely.
can i make 3 wishes tt i wanna to since im 12?

1) pls give my life to those tt need tt more den i do.
2) my family n friends live happily even without mi.
3) before my last breathe, met some1 who really do love mi.

hahaah.. i guess viewer will scold mi for being so negative de lo. haha.
sorry
!!!

hope all happy always!!

friends

2008-02-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

friends?
some will stand by ur side , be with u .
some only a passer-by.
i met lots of passer-by.
they left mi.
sad```

miss mi? really?
hhha.
i cant differentiate true n false nw.

hmmm

2008-02-24T14:00:00.003+08:00

i kana complain for nt up-dating my blog.
haha.
hmmm.. rmb i took 5 papers last dec.
i only pass 4 paper.
left the only 1 which is the easiers 1.
i don noe y i cant pass tt lo.
actually expected de lo. haha.

hmmm... my 'sisters' was asking mi hw i want to celebrate my bday which is at 25days time.
hmmm...
we go do facial? we go steamboat? we go hans? we go....
actually i hope theres another some1 who can celebrate with mi.
haha.
i was glad tt seasons r still goin fine.
maybe sometimes theres some dispute o etc.
we accept eachothers as who we r.=)

hmmm.. yst saw yz n he was so happy seeing mi lo but i was rushin to meet jing.
yz is leavin spore soon. hahah.
our story goin to end here.
a new story is goin to begin.

there was this guy named kelvin @ my workplace , his impression to mi is ok .
but i goin to leave my audit co. at end of the month , so nth will revolve.
goin to a new co. doin accounts instead.
scheduled tight. wed n thur gt to dash to sch.
i suppose i will be late for classes on every wed n thurs.
my workin hr 9-6pm @ great world city.

i need a shoulder to lean on. haha

i rule myself!

2008-02-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

how dare u judge my life?
when i allow u to do so?
i rule my own life!
i judge my own life!

how dare u say i wont have any lover this yr on the valentine day?
....
i was so angry until gona lose my patience outside.
....
the more u say i wont have, the more chance i will have.
i gona open up my heart.
friends, whose friends r single n nice, intro to mi den.
i love to have more friends , more choices.
my criteria so gd lo, i nt afraid i cant find 1 who can adore mi de.

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!

Tang Su Wen

2008-02-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

What Tang Su Wen Means:

What Tang Su Wen Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

changing

2008-02-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

2008
I realise my patience is getting to a limit.

In the past i will oni vent my anger on 1 particular person.
Now, i will treat tt person gd instead even im fuming angry.
no idea wad happening.

theres this shi xiang tellin mi he love mi n wan mi to be his gal.
he sound serious but pls la.
who will believe lo.

in 2008, this is the 1st time i don have any wishes @ all.
just hope tt my exam pass with flying colors.

Ppl changing, i changed too.
=)

hw was i?

2008-01-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... workin there is ok lol.
tryin to adapt.
nt bad lo.
haha.

gt to noe 1 of my 'tong shi' was my classmate in tax class.
haha.. nt bad la .. still gt notice mi de. haha..

Hmmm..
past two week i was tryin to wake up early n slp early..
so sleepy lo.
so tired. no time to think.
nw getting better le. haha.
hmm.. start to feel sentimental n think alot alittle bit le. hahha.
erm..
all ppl r 'using' eachother to gt wad they desire.
all ppl r 'getting' eachother to gt rid of loniness.
all ppl r selfish in diff aspect.
maybe nt all but most ppl do.
aint there any warm in this world?
any saint?
actually i always wan to ask an insane qns but don noe hw to ask.
why r there existence of human?
wad r our task o responsibility in the world?
wad r the purpose of creating human den destroy them again?
why must we(human) be the cleverest 1 ? why cant other animal?
hahaha.
insane har!
'fang xin', im ok la just don understand.

erm...
when growing up,
ppl will change.
*this is a definite 1.
when experiencing new adventure in life,
ppl will change.
*
when ppl changing,
they will tend to forget many things.
*
It is true tt tts part of life.
but ...
haha.
nvm.
=)

Nt yet buy new clothing.
gt to gt it by this 2 weeks.
don feel like goin in weekend.
weekday no 1 acc mi.
gt to go my own?
haha.
i oni free on mon n tue n fri evening onwards.
hehe...
let mi noe if any dating.
haah.
=)

最后的风度

2008-01-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

this song makes mi cry!!!

failed

2008-01-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

my trusting engine failed!
my laughing engine failed!
my control temper engine failed!
haah.

horrible thurs!

2008-01-11T11:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
attendin lesson on thurs nit with such a lecturer is makin my life ...!
make a guess hw my lecturer look ba!!

this is 1 of my lecturer!!the 1 making my life ...!

U ppl make a guess who do u think this pic resemble?
edna from incredible! 'ah hao hao jie shao'!
haha... mi n my friends awknowleged tt she look more like edna!

actually i don noe wad to say abt her.
i just don like her.
attending her class, i always dragged my feet when on my way to her class.
unlike mi rit?! haha.
sometimes she tot she was jokin but nt funny lol!
hehe.

however, i gt to noe a new gal in class.
she was beautiful!
i rarely say ppl beautiful de lo!
she look ok to mi lol.
but we didnt intro ourselves.
hope tt we can rmb eachother when next meet.
haha.

later goin work alone w/o cin!
sian lol.
haha.
oya, yst nit i 1st time saw cin tie up her hair. haha.
cool` man!!

sad

2008-01-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

its a long time since i update.
few days back i told alvin n cindy tt i starting to fall in love again.
i say the feelin is gettin back on yz.
i tot so.
but since tue outing with him.
i reflected.
he did take initiative to hint mi something.(o i think too much?)
we were sometimes intimate; closser den before.
but he isnt a gentlemen at all .
tts the issue i mind somehow.

heard tt yz is single already.
he first time intiate mi to c his phone etc.
no pumping, no excitement, nth.

but i realized tt wasnt love but maybe a replacement.
i do love yz but as a friend.
i still have nt forgotten a guy. (i think so)
wads the perserverance for?
i dont noe.
gd memories reflecting back.
forgotten those bad ones.
haha.
idiot mi!

m i a flerter o vice versa?
i cant confirm.

maybe i nt ready for a r/s yet.
maybe i do don likes yz at all.
the feelin done completely.

monday 14/1 startin workin.
hope will be great.

sunday 13/1 season picnic.
miss u sistas.

concentrates on studies.
later at nit goin for sch.
haha.

missess

2008-01-06T03:00:00.000+08:00

oya... i found a job in a account/audit firm.
starting on the 14th.
the pay is low but take it as a learning journey lol.
1st time interview den selected. rather happy but who can i share the joy?
haha. don really prepare for it.
missess n missess n missess!!!

i suddenly feel moody during work just nw.
msged him 나는 당신을 놓친다 (in english).
私は逃す!vous manque!

quiting i는, 그 괴괴망측하게 본ㄴ다는 것을 그가 알고 있을 때.
이 2 일 그는 괴괴망측하고, 오히려 슬픈 보는 본다.
다만 왜 모르십시오!

=)
miss seasons.
miss the old days.
miss him1 a little.
miss him2 more.

can i wish something?
ことを私を愛し、抱き締めることを得ている彼望みなさい!

haha.Today my entry is so special. haha
Gute Nacht!

wishes

2008-01-01T02:11:00.000+08:00

almost forget to blog my new yr wishes. haha.
hmmm.

* meet out more with my old friends.
* know more new friends.
* pass my 2007 exams (CAT)
* pass my 2008 exams (ACCA)
* gt a nice job (AA)
* earn more $$$
* gt away from Prime
* find my prince charm
* reduce my weigh
* Good luck

hmmm... i think tts all .
haha.
lookin forward for seasons meetin on the 13/1/2008.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL VIEWER!!
BLESSES!!!

rundown!!!!

2007-12-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

Was sick.
work in the morning. sianz!!!
but tnx yi xuan for changin with mi. haha.
Was goin to gp hse tonit.
Today his bday.
hahaa.

hmmm. so sick.
both physically n mentally.
sick of workin in prime.
sick of this yr( this yr too many MC le!!!)

so wanting to broadcast n ask the world.
want to ask hw they think of mi.
den tabulate a table for analysis. haha.
sometimes really don understand why some of my friends will praise my other friends n nt mi.
haha. better don say much. haha.

u noe wad i gt to noe 3 new friends in prime.
we r ard the same age. haha.
actually younger den mi. haha.
the 3 gals r yi xuan , yin yan n xin yi.
haha.
hw can i describe them?
haha.
actually, if u break up my character into 3 portion.
the 3 portion will den equal to wad i think i can describe them as.
haha.
feel comfortable yet still don dare to tok much.
O maybe i don really tok much. haha.
u noe wad,yin yan n xy r biwei's friends(from hua yi)
N u noe wad xinyi knew lijing n chin chong.
haha.
so coincident lol.
haha.
hmmm. wad they think abt mi as?
haha.

oya!!! yz so weird today.
saw mi in the morning while workin.
look suprise n happy.
y ne?
we do tok alot.
but mostly abt 31/12/2007 event.
omg... he keep smiling lo.
like siao lol.
don noe wad hit his nerve. haha.
heck lol.

hmmm. miss my seasons n lao po(s).
haha.
i cant wait to pass the present to jing. haha.
she sure love it.(i anyhw say de). haha.

yr2206 is uneven sailing for mi.
yr2007 is still sailing for mi.
hope tt 2008 will be better. haha.
its a must. haha.
omg. lookin for a new job related to accounts.
hope i can faster find n den faster leave prime.
haha.

christmas wishes!

2007-12-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm. wads my christmas wishes?
i gt oni 3 wishes for the christmas.
1) pass my CAT exam so tt i can successfully proceed my ACCA.
2) move on ( no more tt 3 guys).
3) have an ideal 2008.

tts wad i wishes.
haha.
hope to move on n escape my current job.
but i think i can oni quit when i find a new ideal AA job.
don wish to waste my time when my class is oni on 2 weeddays evening.
haha.

i m special. i can succeed.

btw this morn i finally go for jogging with a terrible headach.
tnx to my family. haha.
but running is great.
after tt i was at hm sleepin until dinner time. haha
had pizza. haha.
so tired. haha.

christmas

2007-12-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

wad a great christmas eve i had.
leg pain until siao.
sian until siao.
squeeze until siao.
nth special lol.
tot can meet yz but ....
the more we go nearer to find him n his cousin , the more they move further until i wan kill ppl le.
hong n an n co. came to meet us at orchard.
we were like ....
sianz!!!!
so wanna to kill ppl lol.

alvin say hong n yz gt feelin on mi but nt LOVE yet.
aint friends is going by feelin?
they gt special feel on mi?
don understand leh.
but they don likes mi.
don noe y both don dare to tok much with mi de lo.
haha.

its so hurtful when friends say u r nth as comparing to another friends lol.
no attraction n etc.
i may nt be perfect. No 1 is perfect.but i gt my own attraction n my own factors lol.
so angry n sian n fuming.

蔡依林 - 節拍器

2007-12-21T13:25:00.001+08:00

听说爱情回来过

2007-12-21T13:15:00.000+08:00

how my day?

2007-12-20T14:17:00.000+08:00

Monday, went out with fl.Watched [Alvin and the chipmunk]. they are so cute.

Tuesday, went out with cindy n an an. den bump onto yulong n kent. The 2 guys n i chatted n i miss them. But poor yulong , i kept hitting his back. hope he is alright. haha. Den don noe y, yz appeared. i was so close with my fellow pal. All of a sudden he sat beside mi, so close lo. i was half angry n uncomfortable lo. Don noe wad stupid yz thinkin? maybe im the 1 thinkin too much. haha. Nt forgettin on my way back home i saw eda.heeh. i saw so many ppl within 1 day. haha. don have the chance to meet pf. so next time we will meet. haha.oya, nt forgettin kent said tt yz gt the 'star look' . hhhaa. he handsome meh? haha. okok oni lo. haha.

Wednesday, went reg with my kaplan friends.We are takin Taxation(TX) n Financial Management(FM). So next yr onwards , my lesson will be on wed n thur evening.ahha.
Gona find job fast. hehe.
After the reg, we went to kbox n exchange presents... haha.
its such a coincidence tt i buy for mina n mina buy for mi. haha. so funny. hahah.
really enjoying ourself. i love shooting ppl. haha.

today n tml n tml tml i gt work.
sian 3/4. haha.
cant meet my seasons on sat. hope tt don mind.
i think this is the 1st christmas i nt joining them ba.
-_-!!!
love them!

feel like crying

2007-12-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

today while workin i so feel like cryin.
things isnt turn up wad i want/expected.
i was so 'f up' .
this will the first n last time u saw mi sayin words tt i wont say.
some ppl avoid mi n turn away when i walk by.
some ppl can laugh so happy n oni care abt own biz'.
some ppl kou bu dui xin.
some ppl some ppl some ppl.
today i saw many type of ppl.
oni 2 senior show mi tt they r true.
at least true to mi when tok n when i ask qns.

............
im so........
angry yet feel like cryin.
don even feel like eatin nw.
tts wad my present from the highness after my exam.
wow so 'great'.
just y cant ppl speak up.

venting anger

2007-12-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

Can allow mi to be abit sentimental nw?
Awhile la.

Hmmm... i have a deep thought tt lead mi to a sleepless nite yst.
haha.
Don u find its rather hard to find some1 who understand u, who dare to speak to u the truth and who are there for u truely???
haha.
ppl keep sayin tt im 变色龙 ar, hidding myself ar, don have my own personality ar, don have the X-factor ar, nt attractive ar n etc.
is tt wad u all think?
haha.
if so, i think u r wrong den.

When heard abt those comments i will always gigged ard n say 'ya lo'.
tell u wad, i do have my way of doin things.
im just oni‘ 慢热’.
if 1day u find me 'very high' to a stranger, is either i see myself in tt person o its fake.
i do believe all living things n non- living things have their own uniqueness.
although i love comparing whoever with mi, i do tt coz im sure i win tt whoever ar.
jus wan assurance ar. i noe tt all ppl have diff preferrence but cant i listen to the truth n nt rose tinted one?
Im getting really pissed off.

hmm... who really understand mi?
haha...

hmmm... i do believe in past life thingy.
sometimes im quiet with my friends but i feel comfortable.
sometimes i talk alot coz im getting more clickz with my friends
sometimes sometimes sometimes.
haha

im so pissed off when ppl who don really understand mi , insisted in understandin mi n predicted this n that.
wads tt perserverance for? to gt mi hook on to believe im who u r insisting?
tell u ppl, im who i m.
if i treats u as my friends, vice versa, i will be totally truely suwen infront of u.
if nt don lets continue acting until see who being defeated ba.
im nt bad at acting de wor.
haha

venting my anger out.
haha.

yoyoyo

2007-12-13T02:10:00.000+08:00

yeah! finally my exams over.
shiok!!!
haha.
so sleepy.
haha.
today n tml workin. haha.
den tml tml goin to...(don tell u)
haha.
my next week schedule:
wed booked by my lovely gals n 1 guy. haha
mon is booked by fl.
tue i think booked by lao po- cin(m i right?)
thurs n ... workin...
as for the date 22nd? i try la. hehe.
hmm. book my whilestock last.
hmmm. someone book mi for steamboat leh.
i feel like eatin one.
haha.
oni abt 2 weeks holiday sia.
den still need to look for job.
next yr takin evening classes.
hehe.
enjoy!

sick

2007-12-06T13:27:00.000+08:00

the worst time of mine.
sick in the midst of exam.
so sick.
hope i can struggle to the end of my exam.

theories theories theories...
wad should i study?
hahaa.
no mood...
hope i can pass la..
i must pass.

i tried ginger tea jus nw.
so argggggghhhh.
hhaa.
threw away after afew sip.
hehe.

alone

2007-12-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

there r ppl who r selfish and oso 'selless'.
haha...
i gt to noe 1 .
so angry.

this 2 days i travel alone.
i find tt actually im nt afraid being alone.
i enjoyin being alone.
haha.

the drafting pp is ok.
the costing is 'theories' but still hope can make it.
more confident this time round.
more pp on friday, my another 'wordy' pp. haha.
goin to study when the sun is out.
den next week is my tax pp n financial pp.
gambatae!!

weird...
is it ppl avoidin mi o wad?
o is it allow mi time for exam?
haha.
maybe sianing mi fan ba!! haha!!
...
nite

idoit!!!

2007-12-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

no more this guy named yz in my life.
feel so angry. actually nt very angry.
jus feel terrible being cheated.
he gt gf in malaysia le lo.
i don wan be 3rd parties.
i hate it.
wad adore mi as a 'sister'
please la. tts my style nt urs.
don copy mi lo.

den i realise i didnt like him at all.
nt at all from the start.
maybe enjoy being jeopardise.
haha.
but even friends, i oso angry of being cheated.

hmmm. jus wan to tell seasons tt yz is being strongly pulled out of my life.
hehe. =)

negative

2007-11-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

negative mi!
what is the reason i was born?
whats my future be like?
im tired of living in such a mist.
im tired of this n that.
wads my reponsibility here?

exam commence on 3rd dec.
end at 12 dec.
jia you to the extreme.

sleepless nite!

2007-11-19T06:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm. rached hm at abt 12am.
my brother ask mi to drink 'red bull'.
i tried.
den u noe wad? i ended up cant sleep the whole nite.
yawning but cant fall sleep.
...
this symtons apply oso when i drink coffee.
haha.
...
yst during work, i was so jealous when yz show mi a msg from his 'gal sex friend'.
he ask mi wad the msg meant.
i was so .......lol.
den i msg him to show i care.
he den reply mi he havin fever.
i was like so damn angry but cant help due to he is sick.
so i tell him to rest well n he tnx mi n i don feel like replyin him.
den when i dismiss from work at ard 11pm, he msged mi to ask mi go home early.
wad makes him so care of wad time i go home?
...
he show he cares but he acted heck care!!!
i was like so flaming with fire.
i decided to .........!
we shall see.
tts his final chance if he really do cares abt mi.

i noe its just a msg but must he act like the msg is makin him so happy???
...
cant sleep lol.
i go watch romantic princess den study ba!!!

jia you!!

2007-11-11T12:49:00.000+08:00

yst was yz bday.
we gave him a Tee.
haha.
he looked 'pai seh' n touched! haha
yst he shocked mi when he hold onto mine.
i shivered!!...

I RMBED i said i wanna give up but he have moved more futher up on.
actually im abit touched.
the way we look at eachothers make ppl tot tt we r already a pair.
but 'bu ke nan de la'

i finally know the reason why he hold back.
becoz of qualification.
haha.
in his mind, he is oni 'O' grad n im a degree grad.
he tot alot. he tot abt marriage n etc.
i was stunned. haha
actually, tts was also wad i mind. haha.

exam in less than a mth.
5 module.
oni 2 completed in rev.
finances is my main prob.
hope i can faster complete my rev.
hahahaaa. jia you!!!!

end of my life??

2007-11-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

cough n cough n cough.
so breathless.
even cough out blood strain.
lost my voice , cant sing.

wake up early, sleep early.
slp every after my med. (due to drowsiness)
my patience was always very gd.
but this 2 days i lost temper very easily.
yst i treated yz rather bad in sms n call.
today i didnt acc cindy before work.
so sorry. im really sorry.

sometimes i think can i end this.
haha.
my ans is i cant.
i still have nt meet my destined partner.
i still have nt buy enough .
i still have nt meet more friends.
i still have nt eat enough delicate.
i still wan live on even im tired of everythings.
haha.

past 2 days, maxi ask mi abt yz . i said i giving up.
den she said 1 things tt touches mi so much.
she said ;" cat n she hope tt i can find some1 tt can dote mi!"
im touched. really touched.
im so happy tt i know them.
i love them so much. i love this 2 sisters of mine so much.
nt forgettin mina n liu ye n sukano n carol.
i love them all so much tt i cant bear left them.

i must study hard n move on together with them.
tts my motivation.
=)

hmmm. fl, im really ok la.
im the 1 declare 'game over'.
im tired of guessin here n there.
im tired of can only c improvent when he knew i gt angry.
btw he didnt open his mouth n say he likes mi. he never.
maybe i think too much ba.
有感觉 not equal to喜欢。
u understand?
haha

sian

2007-11-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

gt fever n cold.
so sick. later goin work at 5pm to 11 pm lo.
don feel like goin. haha

today i wake up q early. wake at 6.30am. haha.
feelin dizzy.
haha

hmm... tell u wad i giving yz up.
but i 'bu she de leh'. haha.
heard from others tt he gt gf le.
when i asked him he was like so angry askin who say de.
so angry for wad. but he didnt agree nor deny.
im tired of guessing.
i n him was like temperature.
sometimes so sweet n 'hot', sometimes so cold. haha
my 'mei li wu fa dang', giving him up oso meant nth lo.
haha.

weird!

2007-11-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

today yz was so fierce lo.
i don dare to tok to him.
while working, tt 21 guy keep disturbing mi lo.
den yz looked so weird lo.
don noe wad these guys r thinkin la.
at 1 glance i n yz smile to eachother so sweetly tt feel like we r couple. haha.

after work, yz msg mi.
‘他跟你很好噢。’
den i say ’谁?’
den he say 'nth'
den i ask '为什么你今天表情怪怪的？’
den he say '吃醋'
den i ask '为什么吃醋'
den he say'因为不懂要吃什么'
den i called him. he sound weird.
when i tok abt tt 21 guy , he say he abt to fall asleep.
den i ask abt the outing we say before.
den he say see first lo. i was so angry lo.
den he say wanna slp. de nwe ended our call.

i ask cin n jie. they say its obvious he is jealous.
was he?
i don noe leh.

有感觉= 喜欢吗？
he only tell mi gt feelin .
does tt equal to like?

y always need to guess here n there.
cant it b direct?
so tired.
hope he will b great tml.
haha.

bad?

2007-11-02T01:32:00.000+08:00

M i very bad?
he ask mi whether i like him. first time he asked so directly.
But my reply is tt it isnt like but comfort.
M i pushing him further? haha.
he was like so sad n went to slp so tt early just nw.
Did i hurt him?
i don meant it.
who ask him doin things tt i cant b hinted on?
he rmbed my every action n words but for wad when he insist he is nt gd.
i today even send him friendship forward msg.
den he called. we tok.
weird.haha. i feel nth but afraid he gt hurt.
which means i don really likes him?
i don noe really don noe.
feelin tired. lets nature takes it place ba.

this morning i was abt to doze off in lesson.
i think yvonne saw lo. my eyes really close up n slept abt 3sec.
hehe. im really tired.

after class, went far east wif maxi n cat.
we ate at 'hans' n shop n photo takin at my fav place- tiolet. haha.
walk walk walk talk talk talk.
really enjoy.
but i didnt gt any stuff. too tired to think.
only cat bought a long pants.haha.
den went home.
haha.

giving up

2007-10-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

1 week dateline from today.
if no improvement den i will give up.
im tired of the ai mei.
dont u?
keep sayin he was so happy when saw mi , when listen my voice.
but i don feel real lo.
muack here n there.
who m i to u?
nth lo.
im tired of guessing .
=)

hehe

2007-10-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

i so tired. haha

finally

2007-10-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

he finally admit.
basically forced by mi.
but i didnt say anything after tt.
i don noe i really love him o nt.
so 'shun qi zhi run'
but where gt guy say he like u becoz u cute.
so weird.
haha.
ask mi to keep his $$ for wad la.
ltr i eat up den u noe.

we 2 noe tt we oni adore eachother.
Not likes/loves yet.
we r tryin to noe eachothers more den say ba.
erm. there is 2 issues to consider:
1. will my family minds?
2. i goin to leave prime. so will everyday faded off when i left? just like my previous r/s?
...
there is alot of issues to consider.
maybe we can b very gd friends but nt in r/s ba.
hhaa.

actually i nt so wanting to go into r/s.
he is really gd to mi.
c hw ba.
haha.

oya! meet fl jus nw. tok alot.
hope her arm recover fast fast.
becoz i wan huggies. haha.

omg

2007-10-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

omg. why he kept my photo?
i was really angry abt yz but after today im nt angry le.
hehe.
today,his every words was like hinting something lo.
but maybe i too sensitive o wad.
he say wanna show mi cute stuff. N he showed mi.
U noe wads tt? haha. too embarrase to say la. so ps.haha
he can say so loud in public tt he still a virgin.
haha. tt break mi into laughter.
he waited n accompany us till 10pm.
i ask him to go home but he didnt want.
he gt course tml lol. gt to wake up early leh.
hope he wont feel tired .

he ask my permission to keep tt cute stuff .
den we were like so ai mei.
he denied den nvm lo. don let mi see u havent del hor.
so angry. hahah.
he is really cute today.
haha. he knew my age le.
don noe whether he mind o nt lol.
haha.

escape

2007-10-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

many things happened.
im stressed this time round.
ya, finally stressed whereback from my 'N' level.
is tt a gd sign o nt?
i never want to wake up from my bed. so tired!

yz finally ask abt whether i like him. but i acted blur.
coz i oso don noe.
when he ask mi abt my past r/s, i told him truely.
he was like afraid of commitment.
he said im a gd girl.
什么意识嘛？
i was damn angry n called cin .
cin insist i tot too much, i may misunderstood him.
but i really angy X3 .
Nt goin to tok to him anymore.
why he can keep askin mi n i replied.
when i ask him qns, he didnt replied.
why he can noe mi more n i cant noe him more.
i tell him truely coz i wan him to tell mi the truth oso ma.
i was too tian zhen le la.

as for my studies, i m stressed.
the tons of rev hw is killing mi lo
i must pass this time round.
if nt i may gt to change my path.
i don like wasting time doin things tt have no outcome.

friends

2007-10-21T14:29:00.000+08:00

some/most ppl say friends will stay long n endure eachothers.
be it be negative o positive.
they shared.

but i think tt they cant share much.
especially personal issue like r/s o fakily issues.
hahah.
friends will turn sour if the above matters.
haha.
tts wad i feel in my surrounding.

Nt daring

2007-10-19T12:57:00.000+08:00

maybe he really likes mi maybe nt!
But i realise tt i don dare to fall for some1!
No idea why.
diff nationality?
i don noe.
i was shy n speechless when saw him.
escaping.
but he will msg mi when i didnt tok to him n ask mi y i so dao.
haha.
i m nt tt daring ba.

Feel Bad!

2007-10-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

Feel very bad today.
went hereen wif cindy n bought chocolate.
i bought 2 box tt cost 20 each.
gave 1 to yz.
but i didnt mean anything.
hope he don think wrongly.
i don like him but really jus wanna be friends.
he say he very happy but i am very worry.
hope he don think too much.
ghaha.

Empty

2007-10-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Feel rather empty today.
Didnt study much.
Didnt smile much.
Didnt enjoy much.
No idea wads wrong.

During work, i was so tired n restless. No motivation.
So boring.
=)

vein burst!

2007-10-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.On friday, went to acer service centre wif mq.
She den told mi tt my right eye gt a thick red vein.
I was so worry.
After the servicing, i got to rush back to work. Luckily i was there on time.
Tnx cindy who help mi with the pricing and oso lan for counting the float for mi!
haha.
Before tt i did bought a high heel and wear it to work. my foot is do pain . omg. blister hurt n bleed. hhaa.but the heel is nice. haha.

Hmmm. tnx mq for minimising my pain by helpin mi paste the 'sponge'. haha.

While working, i took off my heel (barefooted). Hope the customers don mind. hehe.
yz n lan kept teasing sia. say mi'ai mei'. haha.
He kept teasing on my eye lol.
yz knew i didnt eat and say infront of mi to other person tt 'ai mei can don eat anything de'. Don noe whether wad he say is meant for mi de ? haha.
Once he ask mi to sit down n rest, i rejected. But in the end i oso sat down. haha.
He help mi do those packing. He 'chai yi dian' gt scolding for nt doin his work.
feel so sorry. I even 'chai yi dian hai' my friends gt scolding (cin n shimin). Feel so sorry. I was too high on tt day le. haha.
Rumors spread! only a moment oso spread. haha. But my expression was quite 'cool'. I admit tt i do very 'jin zhang' when he beside mi n lookin at him. haha.
BUT maybe we jus friend la and he help mi coz he noe i gestric pain lol.
But he knew i m 'jin zhang'. omg. hope he don think too much. haha. His skin really thick lol. He don mind those rumors de lo. haha.

On sat i didnt go work . i went for the doctor. He say maybe due to rubbing o sun rays o my previous heavy cough den cause my eye's vein to break. the look so horrible. Luckily i am nt blind. so scary. BUT i got to slp early. coz i feel its a warning tt i shouldnt slp late le! plenty of rest if possible.

Today i was at home for the whole day. doing my assignment. quarter completed. hehe!
tml goin sch . hope those gals wont b scared by my eye. haha. Btw, the blood cot is getting better; it spread n nt as red as fri!

=)

不想懂得

2007-10-13T14:55:00.000+08:00

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什麼
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折
我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的

terrible mood

2007-10-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

such a terrible mood nw.

today,in the day, i was still ok.
i still can control my mood.

today,in the nite, my mood is terrible.
i don wish to tok o do my routine.
i jus wan to b isolate.

reasons being :
1. 16/7 YO jie
2. auntie jennifer
3. yz

haha.

i think alot. my brain generate faster den usual.
so tired. but cant slp.
so tired, but no 1 to shoulder on.
so tired , but denied.
so tired, but aiming for distinction for my dec exam.
so tired *3!!!

i MUST score this time round.
its my last chance. i tell myself.

i suppose i will only recover, or should i say hide myself, for another 3 to4 days.
hhaa.

sometimes i really don understand human.
haha. i think i will never.
sickening.
atrocious.
if i can choose, i don wan to be, at least at this instance.

weird

2007-10-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today i work until 11pm.
basically just reached home.
The super hot sun makes mi damn moody.
in the daytime, my face is damn black de.
haha.
but everything changes in the night.
he suddenly say to mi 'cashier, some1 wan pay money'
i was damn angry and say 'wad cashier la?'
next i was tokin to ah an n another uncle abt M this n that.
we r tokin abt the past M(history la).
den yz come out to pack the drinks.
den ah an teased him n i .
we were like pretend heard nth and do our own duties.
gt customers want to gt stuff. so i say to him ' yz, lend mi ur pen knife'
he was like ' huh? hw come u noe my name?'

next next, he keep carry carton of drinks to my counter. he ask mi need to scan ma?
den i say don need. i jus key in the price i rmbed.
he was like sayin 'wow, so pro'
den i replied 'den? this must rmbed de ar!'
den we stared n silence.
we tok v little but he damn funny. haha.

ah hua asked him abt jie-de lian. he was like so panic and say something like don mind. i abt to laugh out seeing his silly reaction.
haha. omg. so funny.

oya, cindy bought us lots of sushis. WOW! tnx dear. haha
but y don have salmon de? hahaha. i love u so much la.
i didnt eat b4 work, cindy buy waffle n bubble tea for mi lol.
under such hot day, i longing for bubble tea.
i was like, hw come u noe i wan tt?
haha. so happy.tnx cin.
all my friends love mi.
=)

mess

2007-10-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

my mind is in a mess.
im nt glowing?
tts wad all ppl thinks?
feel hurt but a mixed feeling.
i always thought i am really confident but ppl say im cold n nt confident at all.
a mess of feelin.
i WAN to GLOw. i wan to.
i always thought i m but m i?
haha. messy messy messy.
i repeated 3 time which means im really in a mess mind. haha
some1 save mi pls? tell mi more abt mi.
tell mi more abt hw u feel/think abt mi.
i really need tt.
=)

time?

2007-10-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

why do ppl like to say they don have time to do this n that?
its all excuses!
time can be plan by human being.
its just a matter of mentality.
if u don feel like doing so, u will always say no time.
if u very wanting to do so, u will find time for it.
aint i right?
ppl r living in excuses n escaping from reality.
unless the time really crushes.

hmmm. im doing great nowaday.
i don need a men now.
i don need commitment now.
i don need to act now.
i don need to b the 1 tt i dislike.

i am me!
the 1 who r daring.
the 1 who do everything by herself.
the 1 who i like.

times really matter.
it makes mi forget the unwanted love.
it makes mi change to someone i dislike n like.
it makes mi fall for someone else but don dare to commit.
it makes mi gt to noe my friends more.
it brings mi back to reality.
it makes mi lose n gain confidence at the same moment.
it changes mi alot.

im no more the 1 who fantasies alot.
im no more the one who r naive.
im no more the one who only think abt others.
im me.

taking such a long sleep make mi sick.
drowsy.
haha.

judge

2007-09-30T04:00:00.000+08:00

hmm. hw to judge a person if he is gd enough for u to commit?
hw to noe if tt person love ur soul o ur body?
is it really true tt most guy love ur body den soul?
haha. judgemental?! hw to judge? ahhaa

hmm. alot ppl say tt i will marry young. but still i don even understand LOVE!
the more i wan, the more i cant get. haha. tts my life!
nw i don wan love but ...
haha. funny .

also gt alot ppl say my survival rate is low. i mean 生chun 的斗志很瘰！haha
i admit. haha.

hmmm. the time nw is 4.11am, i doin my assignment. haha. so tired. haha
later at 8pm, goin back prime for stock count. goin to last until 1am approximately. so tired. haha.

season

2007-09-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

have season gathering today. hmm.. feel kinda weird. but enjoy myself.
hmmm. seasons day have set to be every 27 oct. hope i wont forget. haha.
so tired. doin my assignment. haha.

don noe wad to write today. logging off.
the time nw is 1.38am. haha .+)

EGG!

2007-09-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

hmm. doin a nest of eggs for my ftc friend birthday. idea from another friend of mine named maxi tan. haha. wad a creative one. hahaha.

last week, maxi bday, we went buggis de don noe where to have our steamboat.
i think tts the 1 cindy keep wanting to go ba. haha. i oso nt sure. haha. no matter wad, the corns there was nice!! haha. season outing we shall eat there. haha. but i think fl don like ba . coz all soup de. hahaa. see hw things goes ba. haha.

hmm! really miss all my lao po(s). haha. hope they r doin well. haha.
omg my back hurts. these few days, i always have 12hrs slp. haha. i oso donnoe y i cant wake up at time planned to. haha. 12hrs slp makin mi more tiring n backach. haha

u noe wad, yst went THIS FASHION to meet cindy. i was late. but she enjoy her try-on session. she almost finish tryin the clothing @ THIS FASHION! haha. unbelievable! coz i was late for abt an hr plus ba. haha. i oso gt try many clothing there when i reached. i bought 2 jeans( long n short) n 2 sleeveless top. spent mi almost 80 bucks. luckily gt discounted. tnx to my beloved cindy lao po. omg. opps. hahah.
its great to shop with her. because she always give mi idea/inspiration. haha.
maybe some changes in style. haha. I WAN MORE TOPS!! haha.

I WAN JIAN FEI LOL!!
i think i goin for exercises. haha. flabby comin out. make mi look more chubby. i don wan lol. haha.

hmmm. as for tt guy, aiyo.. he too young for mi le la. 1 yr leh. NO!!!! i scared later ppl say i date with little boy o wadeva aweful. haha. BUT he is really a great guy! hahah.

hmm. i learned i new dish today. egg + hotdog + mooncake. haha. opps! later kana scolding by my beloved friend. hahha. don angry hor. haha.

cya!

busy n tired

2007-09-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today i have a damn busy n tiring day.
....
i don think i wan say more.
but to all my friends, who wan attempt suicide.
please wait until i tried doing so.
if nt, u better don come be4 mi.
i m feeling helpless, angry n sad.
i rushing my report. so stop here.

zipperr

2007-09-18T12:32:00.000+08:00

Yst i went to sch with an unzip skirt. haha.
i only realise it when my lesson abt to start.
hahaa. my zipper is spoilt and i didnt notice it. haha
luckily my blouse is long enough to cover it.
and also i wear my big n long jacket hm. haha
so pai seh!! haha

haha

2007-09-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

long time no c. hw r u?
really don noe wad to blog. haha

just went to see the friendster pic of miss W n mr J.
look like,
ms W have a new guy. haha. her guy really ressemble mr J. haha
r they looking for substitute of each other? haha.
i suppose; feel they r.
haha. really hope tt 1 day they can b together again.

hmm. hw do 1 feel being substitute?
haha. terrible ba! hatred ba! haha.

last thurs, have a chat with cindy abt my ex.
she say my ex do love mi alot.
haha. but i don feel/think so. haha
i just felt being a replacement of somebody.
the feeling makes mi denied he is my ex. haha

tml, alvin ask mi to go for his talk abt r/s. haha.
i working so didnt go. should /not i go?
haha. don noe leh. i wan my love to enter in nature course.
i don wan the help of anything.
i wan to get something i want by myself.

last week i busy with sch stuff.
this week i will b busy with work.
omg! so busy how to gt to noe more guys? haha.
im nt tt despo la.haha

actually there is a guy la.
but he 1 yr younger . i cant kick off the barrier.
i always lookin for some1 elder den i m. haha
lets nature take its course ba. hehe

hmm, i never miss watching youtube every weekday night. i watching X-family.
jiro so 'yan dao' , han so 'mei', arron n danson so 'ke ai'. lastly, the debut so drama. haha. a nice show .haha.

i slept at 2plus am and wake up at 7.30am. haha

m i doing some kind of reporting o survey? haha
must report these to my deary season sisters.
haha. miss u sisters very much too.
we all so busy with studies and attachment.
really hope there will b a day to gather for sakae n kenny rogger. haha.

hmm. as for cindy, yilin, s.t. and all my friends, i miss u ppl too.
opps, i almost every week see cindy wor. haha. i miss ur cheecky smile.
haha.

i think its long enough le.
i go study le. nite to all. haha

qin ai de!!

2007-09-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

this is a nice song. especially the chorous!! haha

kbox

2007-09-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

Today went kbox wif wt n Rt. ahha. really long time no c wor.ahha
luckily wt called mi to wake mi up. i nearly overslept.haha
so tired recently.

in the train, i think i saw him. but we were like complete stranger. haha. felt nth much but sad. haha. y nt even friend? haha. maybe he didnt saw mi ba. haha. BUT now who cares? hhaa.no matter wad i was an subsitute ma!!

we 3 primary sch friends were really enjoyin ourselves chattin abt past. the fact is tt i really have a terrible memory. haha. i cant really rmb alot stuff in primarily. haha
den i realise tt i love making rumours ard. haha. cant believe tt is mi. haha.
i missed a great r/s during primary sch. haha.

hmm.. a friend of mine say he dreamt my wedding. haha. rather high! haha.
i dream i dream i dream!!

tell u wad, this coming sat i nt working. YaY!! haha.
but tml onwards i gt to focus on my studies le. haha.
study 5 modules for my exam in dec. haha.
i think too early le but nvm.
i wan distinction this round. haha.

fl, tell u wad, my confident return to my hug. haah.
nth can block my way nw!! haha!

tired

2007-08-31T23:46:00.001+08:00

abt mi!!

2007-08-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

uneasy

2007-08-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

was feeling very uneasy today. don noe y but feeling that something is goin to happen. when ppl toking to mi, i gt a feelin tt theres hidden message. when ppl looking at mi, i feel tt they r ill- mouthing mi. weird. very weird.

hope tt no matter wad thing happen, it will b gd thing.
hope this is part of my changes in luck.
hope this will b my turning point.

wad thinkin mi?

2007-08-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

M i too over-sensitive or wad i feel is the right situation?
i thought i n my those ftc clicks r gettin better but i somehow feel tt we r nt close at all.towards mi,don dare this, don dare tt. i felt left out. i don noe hw to, wad to chat sometimes. i worry tt becoz im the youngest, they will don like it o wad.
i rather 'dao' wif this clicks.i oso don noe y?
maybe nth in common.
maybe don dare to open.
wad r friends?
the more i don understand.
haha. so lifeless.
if ur come across to view this, i meant nth/no harm. Just wanna empty my today feeling.

m i really tt 'dao'?
haha.

even ppl say guys r afraid of mi.
haha. hw i look? i look nan kan o wad?
y must afraid of mi?
stupid!!!
i so mad n angry!!!

maze

2007-08-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

Y must he closed all my doors n blocked all 'exits'?
Y must he put mi in a maze?
change point? BUt cant my change point b other stuff?

is he really with mi? beside mi?
i cant heart felt his existence!

all ppl seems to be lyin to mi.
i once thought i can belive this mortal in wad he saying, but now i in doubt.

Y can i predict things so easily but nt stuff of mine?
ahaha. wad a joke!
life is a joke to mi.
bring mi to the world but i feel my existence is nth at all.

i wont named myself a failure because im NOT.
yst my buddy say i do make a different in her.
den who is the 1 who make a different in mi?
2 yrs of 'downpour' make mi lost myself.
make mi lost all my confident.
make mi nobody.

im seaching for mi.
but the outcome is i searched a differnt mi.
i searched the emo mi.
i searched the detestable mi.
when? when will i be able to find the mi tt i want, tt my friends know?
at hm, im mi.
at outside, im nt mi.
haha.

=)

depress n nt emo

2007-08-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

i failed all my 3 paper terribly. haha.
i feel so predicted. hahah.
haha.
this comin dec i takin 5 module at 1 go. omg.
i already forgotten the previous 3 pp.
vexed.
this 2 yrs was full of 'downs'.
so vexed.
hhaa.

cool``

2007-08-20T10:27:00.000+08:00

i've cut my hair at cityhall on the 18/8.
haha. look better den the last haircut.
hmmm. hahha.

later at 4pm, i will b gettin my dec exam online. but later still gt class on. im so WORRY!! really hope i can PASS. i just lokin 4ward for a pass n nth else. haha

wish mi gd luck. hahah.

fen kai yi hou

2007-08-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

This is a nice song.
fen kai yi hou.
hhaaa.

haha

2007-08-14T12:25:00.001+08:00

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show.
You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything.
While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery.

Designer match: Gucci

Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

How Your Favorite Outfit Tells What Kind of Girl You Are

female?

2007-08-14T12:21:00.001+08:00

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

??

2007-08-14T12:17:00.001+08:00

People Envy Your Energy

You've got the drive and determination to keep your life in order, and you are on track to be a huge success.
People tend to envy all you've got in life, but they don't understand the work that goes behind it!

What Do People Envy About You?

??

2007-08-14T12:13:00.001+08:00

Your Love Type: INFJ

The Protector

In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.
For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.

Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.
However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.

Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

What's Your Love Type?

??

2007-08-14T12:08:00.001+08:00

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem.
You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious.
However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it!

You get along well with: The Index Finger

Stay away from: The Pinky

What Finger Are You?

sick

2007-08-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

Again, i fall down.
yst was so torturing.
my pms cause my tummy extreme in pain.
my headach abt to explode.
my throat waas burning.
dizzy.

at tt very moment, memories will b un-buried.
all memories will appear in front.
such a torture.
nw still feel terrible.

alone

2007-08-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

today,tuesdaya busy day at work. nit time, suddenly theres alot ppl.
hmmm. im tired. yet nw i doin my report.
but i somehow love being busy . but i missed alot. missed the readin alvin do today. haha. actually i oso don noe wad to ask. naybe someday i shall ask another person.

if i can have a power, i wan to travel ard at different dimension. want to went back the past n go forward to future. haha!

thurs, i work at 1-6pm. sianz. haha.

i m learning to live more only myself. tt sound more like isolating myself. haha. maybe jus don think too much . haha.

=)

what m i thinkin?

2007-08-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

Why can i still smile like nothing when im feeling so unhappy?
why cant i feel any happiness when im alone by myself?
Did the god hear my prayer; my wishes; my hope?
Did my angel hear my inner speaking?
Have they left me out?
have they forgotten my existence?
please, please pamper mi more. im afraid of being alone; being left out.
please listen to mi. i need u. I ned u to b ard but please don tied mi up.

cant my heart and brain leave mi alone? they making mi rather pissed off.
leave mi alone.

im afraid of being alone but i hate bein pester.

im nt happy but i smiled.so fake smile.

sometimes, hate. sometimes, love. No idea why.

jing, u point the right guy tt time but i n him wont b able.
its just havin a crush becoz he is a guy. haha.
please don talk abt it le.
he isnt the type i wan. +)

dream

2007-07-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Had a dream yst.its so real.
haha. i cant explain the feel here.
so un-believeable. haha

today gt to noe tt derrick de grandma who r healthy passed away while slpin.
y? how? omg!!

i miss her. miss her very much. i miss my grandma.
i don noe hw to express this feelin of mine.
wad i can do is miss her in my heart.
feel her with my heart.
love her with my heart.

i goin slp nw. so tired.

lastly, i find tt i miss him. nt tt person but the other person.
the 1 tt no1 know i admire him. the 1 i cant tell my friends.
hope he doin fine.hope we will meet 1 day. hope he still rmb mi.

really goin slp nw.

bra?

2007-07-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

You Are a Flashy Red Bra!

Outgoing, friendly, and fascinating.
You're a charmer, with your pick of the men.
But you want a man who's as magnetic as you are.
You need someone who can keep up with your all night gab fests!

What Kind of Bra Are You?

breakfast?

2007-07-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

You Are Cereal

Playful and lighthearted, breakfast is likely your favorite meal of the day.
(In fact, you're probably the type who sneaks cereal as a midnight snack.)
Your culinary skills are probably a bit lacking... and you are a sucker for junk food.
Some people accuse you of eating like a kid, but you prefer to think of yourself as low maintenance.

What Kind of Breakfast Are You?

perfectionist??

2007-07-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

You Are 58% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.
Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

Are You a Perfectionist?

Cyndi Wang Xin Ling - Mi Ni Dian Ying MV

2007-07-24T23:30:00.001+08:00

sad

2007-07-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmm, in the early afternoon i n my friend went for hair cut.
the end product i don really like it. don noe y my cousin n i feel tt last time de nicer. wad i noe is tt after the stylist finish cuttin, my face black until omg. don noe whether she notice. haha. hmm, anyway i cant undo it so let it be lol. but somehow feel dissapointed.. ha. let it grow longer i shall cut again. haha.

diff ppl even stylist gt diff view. maybe mine n the stylist view is diff. so forget abt it. omg, this shows hw fussy i m. haha.

went for movie- harry potter wif my cousins. i almost cried out when the wolf man die. hahha. so ps. haha. after the movie, we went for pastamania again. haha. jing, u rmb our always dine in restaurant?. haha. den back home. lastly i love wad i was wearing today. so the like shooting drama. hah

tts all for today! haha

unlucky

2007-07-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

im so unlucky lately.
omg, don noe whether it is because i trimmed my eye brow.
so sickening.
today i forget to void 1 $19 payment. ended up more need to pay up.omg.
waste my time working.
hmmm. i've decided, if the hq allowed the void i will continue workin. if nt, i shall quit. hahaa.

tts all for today.

tired

2007-07-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

today i almost fall asleep in lecture. haha
the lecture is abt taxation. so dry n damn boring.
today is my 2nd lesson abt tax.both lesson makin mi more n more sianz.
so many rules to follow. omg. i didnt even listen to any lesson. mayb 1 day i shall read up aLL @ 1 shoot. haha.

luckily after class we gals n guys goin ps. if nt today will be dammy boring.
hmm. we have an early celebration of ye's bday. haha. the cake is nice.haha. blueberry cake. haha. i love cake. hmm, jing wheres my cake? haha. jkin la.

hmm, i somehow gt a feelin tt maxi n mina are tryin to match-make mi n derrick. don noe whether this feelin is rit o nt. but let mi tell u, he isnt my cup of tea. he is a gd brother but nt other else. REALLY h0pe tt i was too sensitive. hhaa.
after cake session, we went for neoprint lol. haha. everytime takin neoprint wif them, my hair was tied up. so the nan kan lol. but the print end up look ok lol. haha. nt too bad. haha. den off we go. back to hm. haha

hmm, in the train on the way back hm, i saw a couple so sweet lol.tt gal was slpin on the guy's shoulder for a very long journey. tt guy didnt even move a little. even his phone ring, he didnt move abit to answer. omg, they so sweet. will i meet some1 like tt?? haha.

hmm, alvin went for op today. gd luck for him. =)
hope tt i can find my prince soon. im so tired. i need a 'junction' to let mi lean on nw. =)

mistakes.

2007-07-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

hmm.
1st mth of work i lost abt $10 due to nets payment. My pay deduct $2.5. which means i treat Prime- my work place, a plate of chicken rice.
today, 3rd mth of work i lost another $10 due to nets payment again. haha. which mean goin to treat another plate of chicken rice.
haha.

don noe whether its because i trimmed my eye brow. haha. more bad luck comin. haha.

the incident is due to payment of 11.6 but i nets it as 1.6. haha. so careless. haha. even da jie say mi. haha.

but i find its ok la. every fort mth, i treat prime a plate. haha.

hmmm. this morning went cine wif alvin n cin. haha
hmmm. nth much den.

feeling? haha. weird.
belief o nt?
reliable o nt?
truthful o nt?
friend o love?
haha.

Guys Like That You're Fun

2007-07-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

y?

2007-07-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm. inferior inferior inferior.
hmmm. shld i believe o nt?
shld i change o remain?
y she able to win mi?
do i look really ugly?
where do u ppl think she prettier?
i don understand.
i always feel tt i win her until he told mi she win mi.
omg. speechless.
escape escape escape.
fine. tryin to escape.

y theres some ppl say i easy goin but some other say i secretive?
hmm.. which 1 is the true mi?
...
...

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

2007-07-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are innocent, sweet, and young at heart.
You present a purity that many people find appealing.
However, you are often tired of people treating you like a child.

Underneath it all, you enjoy being babied and pampered.
You have been known to feign inexperience to get out of sticky situations.
You fear getting old and losing your childlike charms.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

连哭都是我的错

2007-07-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

连哭都是我的错

分手到底是不是你要的结果
给不了我太多还不准我难过
不知道是为了什么
还要把你无力的爱记得那么多
怎么放手

也许上天安排你我擦身而过
我明白和你的爱不可能会有结果
你留下泛黄的承诺
要我抱着你的双手流着泪不准你走
说我贱也无话可说

连哭都是我的错
在你面前还要我怎么做
我看见你们拥抱还一笑而过
沉默是我的错
连哭都是我的错
空房间独自等待着日落
爱没有进入身体已经太执着
爱你是我的错连结束也是我的错

也许上天安排你我擦身而过
我明白和你的爱不可能会有结果
你留下泛黄的承诺
要我抱着你的双手流着泪不准你走
说我贱也无话可说

连哭都是我的错
在你面前还要我怎么做
我看见你们拥抱还一笑而过
沉默是我的错
连哭都是我的错
空房间独自等待着日落
爱没有进入身体已经太执着
爱你是我的错连结束也是我的错
哦...哦...哦...
连哭都是我的错
空房间独自等待着日落
爱没有进入身体已经太执着
爱你是我的错连结束也是我的错
哦...哦...哦

gym

2007-07-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this morning went gym with my besty. haha. enjoy ourself more on chatting den exercising. haha. we r the chatter- box. haha. opps.

hmm. mayb i will set myself to go gym every wednesday.haha

in the morning, i treat 'kin- mo' o/n 'ah pui', 2 iced coffee. haha. spent me $2. haha. on monday, i treat cin, miko n 'ma`' , bubble tea. hahah
c i so gd sia. haha.

hmm. yong zhou , miko , hing rong n him.
haha. 2 malaysian. 3 of them younger den i m. haha
pls, i doesnt mean i mind their nationality. i just don noe hw to communicate with them. i really hope we will b very 'buddy' only. No ANY OTHER THOUGHT!!

i paint my toe- nail with blue vanish. haha. so wow!! haha.

tml goin sch rather early. den goin out with those gals. haha.
hmm. sometimes do find tt we r nt very close at all. so sad. on mon, i wan go ps but they don wan acc mi. haha. maybe they r really very tired. nt like me, 'chiong' until i sick.only rest when i cant walk. hahha. i will try my very best to closer our friendship bond. tts 1 of my aim here.

hmm.. yst while working, there this uncle who give mi $2 but he keep insisting he gave mi $5. so i return him $3 back to stop those nuisance. at the end of the day, my reimburse less exactly $3. at tt very moment i curse tt uncle for accusing mi. so maddening. its great tt miko is beside mi to cool my anger down. haha.=)

hmmm. i think tts all for today.