Sunday, 29 April 2007

9:51:00 pm Y

Post title : sick pig

♥ You'll never know the real me.

yst down wif fever. Hate eating those medicine, makin mi feel more sick. haha..
u noe wad yst i went sch in the afternoon den when i reached hm i gt fever.. haha..
basically yst n nw , i find myself abit high.. haha.. tt fever burnt off my nerve.. haha..

yst i really must tnx maxi for helpin mi ask khyron abt the revision class thingy. Now im thinkin whether should i go o nt. She say theres some changes but i don noe wads the changes.. siao la.. how? there already 18 chapter for mi to cover le.. i only accomplish abit leh.. save mi!!

i don noe y? sometimes i don noe hw to communicate.. this make mi lost my true nature.. haha.. must think of ways to communicate.. =)

today i feel damn drowsy after eatin medicine but i still stand until nw reportin my theory.. really hope tt those topic didnt change much.. pls god, don let mi down again.. i admit i hate theory but i learning to love it. don abandon mi pls..

erm.. nw im so blur blur.. gtg..

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

1:05:00 am Y

Post title : never let you go

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Janice Wei Lan - Never Let You Go Lyrics

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,

*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go

12:49:00 am Y

Post title : im ok le

♥ You'll never know the real me.

All finally settled... im happy... rest assured... peace...

Tuesday, 24 April 2007

11:32:00 pm Y

Post title : middle

♥ You'll never know the real me.

y must i b in the middle? y m i becomin the betrayer?

in primary sch , im the middle person of my 2 besties.
nw im in the middle again. I scared of being in the middle. im really scared.
in primary sch, i stop my 2 besties by askin both to slap mi. they don willing to. In the end , we dissolve everything n be best buddy again. Now, im burden wif too many things n don wish to b burden again.But when i noe im in the middle again, i cried. i cant take it. i hate this feelin being in the middle, being misunderstood.
If let mi choose , let mi go.
im a failure in love matter, friendship matter n decisions.
god, let mi go.
im tired.
cant breathe.

i wanna tnx st, she say NO to mi. She will always b there when im cryin.tnx babe.
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1:34:00 pm Y

Post title : who m i?

♥ You'll never know the real me.

wad m i thinking? forgotten but theres still a hole there.
i hate tt. atually i really have forgotten but i feel loney.
loney ? y? i hate tt. yst i didnt slp well, the more i think the more i don understand myself. i thought i understand love but the truth is tt i don understand it n treats it as a replacement for loniness. it sound so bad like playin ard ppl feeling. i apologise. I no more looking forward for those reply le. it seems nth to me nw. im just being loney .im selfish of nt wanting to b hurt.

forgive ! Mayb we shld forgive n forget . no elimination. no sacrific. b as a team n forever a team. Conversation is a very impt issue to all, b it b lover n friends n family.

i hate to b left out. i love being in group/team. im selfish, but nt for love o friendship. I wanna b the center of attraction but i don think i m .

mayb i cant b a gd friend/lover . i apologise.

Saturday, 21 April 2007

9:35:00 pm Y

Post title : thinking!!

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today i met my buddies. 1st time do handicraft together after 5\6 yrs.Mayb next time we can have more this type of activity. The feeling is great. Just love it. have some personal talk wif them. I felt tt all of us had really changed, including myself. All have grown up. =)

hmmm..but the thing is tt they tok abt diff issue but i always regarding the same issue. So sorry to make ur feeling bored. wad can i say is only tt its gettin harder for mi to fall for any1. I also don noe y. Regret? i gt alot but theres 1 i so wanting to noe the answer but i don think its possible for mi to do so.

erm, Is there any1 believe tt 1 can forgo love because of nt wanting to make the other party to suffer? Is there any1 believe tt 1 can see from the eye of others tt whether love exist? Is there any1 die die oso must hand on the 1 he love n make him suffer? can couple still b friend after break-up? =)

wad i write above is mainly my thought wif no proper thinking. im really ok, just don under human. Dont understand hw men n women thinks.

some tell mi tt men wan r/s mainly because of sex. is tt true? i got no idea oso. haha..

rest well!!

Thursday, 19 April 2007

10:04:00 pm Y

Post title : good deed?

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Hmm, today i did a gd deed!! erm.. Abit thick skin n i don think i help much but i think i gt help abit ba.. haha

As usual, when i reach hm my hair clip spoilt. Hope tt tts the only bad luck ba.
i Don wish to have anymore bad luck le coz i love to help ppl. =)

when will some1 fall 4 mi? hmm.. i mean those true love lo.. haha.. lookin forward..
today cindy mention tt this yr , dragon will find romance.. hope tt its true. hope tt it did happen to mi. =)

so tired.. omg todat i spent 32 dollar. Heart broken. bought a top n a necklace. This is the first time i find 1 necklace tt i like n buy. i must faster go find a job to earn $$.. haha.

Tuesday, 17 April 2007

5:33:00 pm Y

Post title : 也许

♥ You'll never know the real me.

After abt such a long period le.. i admit tt i wanna tnx him for being there for mi in the past. Hope he doin fine nw. This song , i love it. the melody is nice n the wording is meaningful.This song seems so familiar. It express wad my heart felt. But no matter wad wad past is past. Now,Im living happily . =)Mayb whoever who read this entry will say think y must i think abt him again but no matter wad he is a friend / classmates of mine.. i cherish the friendship.. i change my hp no. i didnt tell him because i lost his no. hope he don mind. Theres no more love, no more hate . theres only friendship . i do cherish all my friendship.

so whoever viewer who come across tt jus break up wif the 1 u love deeply, don sad.
theres still alot of tml for us to lead meaningfully . Love is something no1 can confirm hw long it will last BUT friendship is something tt was everlasting.
don hate him/her, cherish him/her. jus tt u have nt meet the special 1! =)

歌曲：也许

歌手：蜜雪薇琪专辑：想见你 aitai 新歌加

也许只是个不小心
我却看见你的表情
低头不语
却紧紧皱著眉
闭著眼
也许我装的太可疑
当作没什黱了不起
你的顾虑
却让我无法呼吸
沉默我们的坏习惯
也许空洞的对白
不想只是随便说说
为何你总不懂
我只能接受......oh
最后你终於承认了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我心疼了
大声哭了
再也不特别了
最后我终於放晴了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我放手了
不再等了
谢谢你曾给的
都值得

沉默我们的坏习惯
也许空洞的对白
不想只是随便说说
为何你总不懂
我只能接受......oh
最后你终於承认了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我心疼了
大声哭了
再也不特别了
最后我终於放晴了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我放手了
不再等了
谢谢你曾给的
都值得
最后你终於承认了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我心疼了
大声哭了
再也不特别了
最后我终於放晴了
其实你没那黱爱我
而我放手了
不再等了
谢谢你曾给的
都值得

Sunday, 15 April 2007

10:39:00 pm Y

Post title : don noe how to use

♥ You'll never know the real me.

basically bought a new phone n don noe hw to use... haha.. wanna buy screen protector but don noe where to gt from.. haha... i must protect the phone .. hhaa
.. Nowaday bcoz nt workin, spent alot of $$ .. i wan n must work.. any lobang? haha... =)

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10:10:00 am Y

Post title : sunken

♥ You'll never know the real me.

erm.. yst i went to sch for lesson. so tired ! M so nt because sleepy but cant absorb wad nicholas teaches!

After my class, meetin cin n mq . we went for koba. Den we went for the spree.
cin bought 2 item, mq bought 1 item n i bought 0 item.
Im so diff to pleased , unlike cin who can b easily pleased. Sometimes really envy her. hhaa.

At ard 5.30pm, we met cin friend- xue yi for dinner. Basically i forgotten wad n where we ate. haha.Den head to suntec den home.

Hmm, erm, i really gettin pissed off wif ppl who lied infront of ppl who knew for yrs. Y must one lie? Is is really tt fun?
Y must 1 pulled her friend infront of the public? Wont the 1 feel tt it will makes the friend awkward? ... must 1 hurrily proudly named oneself belong to gov sch infront of all private institute??
Mayb im too sensitive BUT deep inside will taste sour n spicy. =)

erm, through some resources, i gt to noe my buddy is facing some problem. N i feel bad tt i wasnt wif them to comfort n accompany . M i tt busy tt they cant contact mi? O they don wished to faced mi? No matter wad i think i used to it. be it be wadever reason, i will b there for u ppl. No worry. the future is still bright .

c u!!

Thursday, 12 April 2007

11:08:00 pm Y

Post title : tiredx2

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today i wake up late for sch sia. so need to rush here n there.So tired .. haha.. i must nt slp late the day b4 le. =)

After sch, my girls n i go walk walk, den i n maxi went for treading on eyebrow. I almost cried out sia. so pain lol. haha..

Meetin auntie jing @ ard 4 ba. we walk here n there searchin for min's present. Long time didnt meet jing le but we seems as gd as usual.. =) we finally decided on the present n i wont disclose here.. Its secret. haha..

meetin mq ltr den we eat n went home together.. I spent 12 hrs @ town.. haha

IM so MAD abt tt stupid idiot call .. I try to nt lose my temper n tok nicely .. tt idiot say wad meet mi at MOS , pls lol i didnt even go b4 lo.. =@
tt idiot say wanna b friend wif mi , pls lo i don even where the hell he gt my phone number lol ... For yrs i never lose my temper once, so tt idiot better don break my record wor. so angry..

recently i often receive weird call n sms .. Pls la.. no time for all those crap..
But truthfully, at those moments, i really hope tt there is a guy who love mi who protect mi who adore mi ard .. haha.. i wanna to b weak .. i wan bein protected .. i don wan to b strong .. =)

i go do my work le..=)

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

11:24:00 pm Y

Post title : wad m i thinkin

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Life is full of obstacles, we must face them n together grow up! We must nt try to escape / avoid. If so, we will nt b able to grow n learn more!! =)

Today i was havin a tiring day. Almost fall asleep in class!! haha... luckily my determination is strong enough. =) No matter wad , today my mind didnt generate @ all. This makes mi worry wad happen to mi.. After my class, i don feel like goin hm straight . So i called mq . we meet out n she was upset abt her attachment stuff. hope she ok.. we walk n go hm together. =)BTW, when i on my way to Thiong bahru de mac, i lend a helpin hand to a lady who gt no $ to go home. I lend her $2 . she offer to treat mi dinner tml but i say don need.. she tnx mi. hhaa.. Pls la, how would i go dinner wif som1 i don even know.. haha.. No matter wad i hope i do a gd deed.. haha~

Sometimes i oso don noe wad im doin / thinkin.. haha.. i will afraid to call my friends when i feel loney. i gt the thikin tt they r busy , no1 willin to meet .. haha... Past 2 yrs, i did this to som1 i loved b4 .. now i gt this same feelin to my buddies.. hhaa... Don noe y?

Monday, 9 April 2007

11:16:00 pm Y

Post title : tired

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today i wake up @ 7.30AM. so tired!! Meeting my pri sch buddy to sentosa for sun tanning session!! haha.. N now im LOBSTER again.. Face red again !!

erm... we left the siloso @ abt 12pm N head for shower. i poo poo there oso wor.. haha... mayb due to the tablet mummy ask mi to eat ba.. tt 12 tablets = 20 kg veg!!
tt means i consume 20 kg veg a day wor!! wow!! haha!!

after bath, we walk to the coffe bean n rest .. Too thirsty !! haha.. becoz i don drink coffee so i drank "sunrise"!! after drink finish tt drink, i still don noe wads tt drink make of lol!! haha... no matter wad we become more thirsty after finish our beverage.. we share a can of coke den.. haha

den we went cine de kbox ... we sang 3 to 8pm.. so shiok!! no 1 chase us out.. but we wan go tiolet so we go off @ ard 8pm... This is the first time im scared of goin kbox lol.. haha!!

we den went hm.. basically i jus reach hm.. haha.. REally enjoy myself today!! haha...

tml onwards, ppl will named mi red crabby again.. haha... but really hope my sun burn wont b a bad thing!! =)

Sunday, 8 April 2007

7:52:00 pm Y

Post title : wo huai nian de

♥ You'll never know the real me.

nice song!! make mi think alot again!!=)

歌曲：我怀念的
歌手：孙燕姿专辑：逆光

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

Saturday, 7 April 2007

9:05:00 pm Y

Post title : sleepy

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today i stay at hm whole day !! Gt alot of things to do but because i ate the cough syrup , too drowsy to do any study!!
but at least i finish ready tt library bk i borrowed last week . =)

hmm.. nth special today!
but i wanna say i miss all my friends!!
Love u ppl!!

=)

Friday, 6 April 2007

10:19:00 pm Y

Post title : happy

♥ You'll never know the real me.

I finally finish editin my blog.. i still gt another blog to do .. oMg!! tml i den do o tonit??? haha.. see hw lol..

today i spend all my day doin my assignment. pss!! still gt alot waitin for mi.. +(
jus now there a human msg mi sayin i noe him/her.. but i don rmb leh!! i don even noe whether tt human is a guy o women.. haha.. heck la..

hmm.. Sometimes i really don understand adult!! They always like to make comparison, make asumption n make prediction on unrelevant issue!! All these apply in accounts n NoT human !! don they noe tt? haha..

=) i think i faster go do the other blog , i dragged too long le.. haha

12:00:00 am Y

Post title : hmmm

♥ You'll never know the real me.

U R MAKIN MI DISLIKE U MORE THAN EVER!!! omg.. y r there this type of human exist in this world? Im so pissed off.. I think sooner o ltr , tt person will the the ever first human i hate!!=@

today i look listless in sch. tired is the matter ba. hw i wish i gt someone to adore mi jus like wad most of my friends have . sometimes i really envy them. =)
Hope tt my bday wishes will come true!!

Btw today i den gt to noe tt APMI n Kaplan merged !! haha . congrate . =)

gt to rush my work. haiz. 59 more days to exam. im nt ready yet . how? i must strive n gt tt red packet from nicholas !! jia you su wen!!!

Wednesday, 4 April 2007

8:13:00 pm Y

Post title : erm!!

♥ You'll never know the real me.

hmm.. on monday, i went gym wif my pri buddy n i found 1 equipment which i love it very much!! i shall use tt when i went gym next time.. haha..
den we went home , monday is a tiring day. But im happy tt i ready 10 over chapter of the account bk i borrowed!! haha

On tuesday, went town wif my pri buddy to celebrate her bday. i bought a bikini for her.. haha!! we shall wear those bikini on 9/4/07!! haha.. btw i saw 2 of my sec friends .. their looks didnt change @ all.. haha.. hope they r doin fine..

Today i stayed abt whole day in sch. so tired . so many thingy to study. pile of assignments waitin for mi to pamper them. sianz!! haha. i shall go do some of my work nw. i wanna slp early . tml gt to wake up early for school . haiz.. haha

=)

Sunday, 1 April 2007

9:46:00 pm Y

Post title : 逆光

♥ You'll never know the real me.

http://stephxuan।imeem.com/music/uu3o98sc/ni_guang/

歌手：孙燕姿专辑：逆光

也许我一直害怕有答案

也许爱情仅在风里打转

离开释怀很短暂又重来

有时候自问自答

我不要困难把我们击散

我责备自己那么不勇敢

遗憾没有到达拥抱过还是害怕

用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光

那瞬间

是什么痛得刺眼

你的视线是谅解

为什么舍不得熄灭

我逆着光却看见

那是泪光

那力量

我不想再去抵挡

面对希望逆着光

感觉爱存在的地方

一直就在我身旁

我不要困难把我们击散

我责备自己那么不勇敢

遗憾没有到达

拥抱过还是害怕

用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光

那瞬间

是什么痛得刺眼

你的视线是谅解

为什么舍不得熄灭

我逆着光却看见

那是泪光

那力量

我不想再去抵挡

面对希望逆着光

感觉爱存在的地方

一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退

反复证明这份爱有多不

对

背对着你如此漆黑

忍住疲惫

睁开眼打开窗

才发现你就是光芒!

有一束光

那瞬间

是什么痛得刺眼

你的视线是谅解

为什么舍不得熄灭

我逆着光却看见

那是泪光

那力量

我不想再去抵挡

面对希望逆着光

感觉爱存在的地方

一直就在我身旁

光芒

你是光芒