1 week dateline from today.
if no improvement den i will give up.
im tired of the ai mei.
dont u?
keep sayin he was so happy when saw mi , when listen my voice.
but i don feel real lo.
muack here n there.
who m i to u?
nth lo.
im tired of guessing .
=)

i so tired. haha

he finally admit.
basically forced by mi.
but i didnt say anything after tt.
i don noe i really love him o nt.
so 'shun qi zhi run'
but where gt guy say he like u becoz u cute.
so weird.
haha.
ask mi to keep his $$ for wad la.
ltr i eat up den u noe.

we 2 noe tt we oni adore eachother.
Not likes/loves yet.
we r tryin to noe eachothers more den say ba.
erm. there is 2 issues to consider:
1. will my family minds?
2. i goin to leave prime. so will everyday faded off when i left? just like my previous r/s?
...
there is alot of issues to consider.
maybe we can b very gd friends but nt in r/s ba.
hhaa.

actually i nt so wanting to go into r/s.
he is really gd to mi.
c hw ba.
haha.

oya! meet fl jus nw. tok alot.
hope her arm recover fast fast.
becoz i wan huggies. haha.

omg. why he kept my photo?
i was really angry abt yz but after today im nt angry le.
hehe.
today,his every words was like hinting something lo.
but maybe i too sensitive o wad.
he say wanna show mi cute stuff. N he showed mi.
U noe wads tt? haha. too embarrase to say la. so ps.haha
he can say so loud in public tt he still a virgin.
haha. tt break mi into laughter.
he waited n accompany us till 10pm.
i ask him to go home but he didnt want.
he gt course tml lol. gt to wake up early leh.
hope he wont feel tired .

he ask my permission to keep tt cute stuff .
den we were like so ai mei.
he denied den nvm lo. don let mi see u havent del hor.
so angry. hahah.
he is really cute today.
haha. he knew my age le.
don noe whether he mind o nt lol.
haha.

many things happened.
im stressed this time round.
ya, finally stressed whereback from my 'N' level.
is tt a gd sign o nt?
i never want to wake up from my bed. so tired!

yz finally ask abt whether i like him. but i acted blur.
coz i oso don noe.
when he ask mi abt my past r/s, i told him truely.
he was like afraid of commitment.
he said im a gd girl.
什么意识嘛？
i was damn angry n called cin .
cin insist i tot too much, i may misunderstood him.
but i really angy X3 .
Nt goin to tok to him anymore.
why he can keep askin mi n i replied.
when i ask him qns, he didnt replied.
why he can noe mi more n i cant noe him more.
i tell him truely coz i wan him to tell mi the truth oso ma.
i was too tian zhen le la.

as for my studies, i m stressed.
the tons of rev hw is killing mi lo
i must pass this time round.
if nt i may gt to change my path.
i don like wasting time doin things tt have no outcome.

some/most ppl say friends will stay long n endure eachothers.
be it be negative o positive.
they shared.

but i think tt they cant share much.
especially personal issue like r/s o fakily issues.
hahah.
friends will turn sour if the above matters.
haha.
tts wad i feel in my surrounding.

maybe he really likes mi maybe nt!
But i realise tt i don dare to fall for some1!
No idea why.
diff nationality?
i don noe.
i was shy n speechless when saw him.
escaping.
but he will msg mi when i didnt tok to him n ask mi y i so dao.
haha.
i m nt tt daring ba.

Feel very bad today.
went hereen wif cindy n bought chocolate.
i bought 2 box tt cost 20 each.
gave 1 to yz.
but i didnt mean anything.
hope he don think wrongly.
i don like him but really jus wanna be friends.
he say he very happy but i am very worry.
hope he don think too much.
ghaha.

Feel rather empty today.
Didnt study much.
Didnt smile much.
Didnt enjoy much.
No idea wads wrong.

During work, i was so tired n restless. No motivation.
So boring.
=)

Hmmm.On friday, went to acer service centre wif mq.
She den told mi tt my right eye gt a thick red vein.
I was so worry.
After the servicing, i got to rush back to work. Luckily i was there on time.
Tnx cindy who help mi with the pricing and oso lan for counting the float for mi!
haha.
Before tt i did bought a high heel and wear it to work. my foot is do pain . omg. blister hurt n bleed. hhaa.but the heel is nice. haha.

Hmmm. tnx mq for minimising my pain by helpin mi paste the 'sponge'. haha.

While working, i took off my heel (barefooted). Hope the customers don mind. hehe.
yz n lan kept teasing sia. say mi'ai mei'. haha.
He kept teasing on my eye lol.
yz knew i didnt eat and say infront of mi to other person tt 'ai mei can don eat anything de'. Don noe whether wad he say is meant for mi de ? haha.
Once he ask mi to sit down n rest, i rejected. But in the end i oso sat down. haha.
He help mi do those packing. He 'chai yi dian' gt scolding for nt doin his work.
feel so sorry. I even 'chai yi dian hai' my friends gt scolding (cin n shimin). Feel so sorry. I was too high on tt day le. haha.
Rumors spread! only a moment oso spread. haha. But my expression was quite 'cool'. I admit tt i do very 'jin zhang' when he beside mi n lookin at him. haha.
BUT maybe we jus friend la and he help mi coz he noe i gestric pain lol.
But he knew i m 'jin zhang'. omg. hope he don think too much. haha. His skin really thick lol. He don mind those rumors de lo. haha.

On sat i didnt go work . i went for the doctor. He say maybe due to rubbing o sun rays o my previous heavy cough den cause my eye's vein to break. the look so horrible. Luckily i am nt blind. so scary. BUT i got to slp early. coz i feel its a warning tt i shouldnt slp late le! plenty of rest if possible.

Today i was at home for the whole day. doing my assignment. quarter completed. hehe!
tml goin sch . hope those gals wont b scared by my eye. haha. Btw, the blood cot is getting better; it spread n nt as red as fri!

=)

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什麼
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟 心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的

such a terrible mood nw.

today,in the day, i was still ok.
i still can control my mood.

today,in the nite, my mood is terrible.
i don wish to tok o do my routine.
i jus wan to b isolate.

reasons being :
1. 16/7 YO jie
2. auntie jennifer
3. yz

haha.

i think alot. my brain generate faster den usual.
so tired. but cant slp.
so tired, but no 1 to shoulder on.
so tired , but denied.
so tired, but aiming for distinction for my dec exam.
so tired *3!!!

i MUST score this time round.
its my last chance. i tell myself.

i suppose i will only recover, or should i say hide myself, for another 3 to4 days.
hhaa.

sometimes i really don understand human.
haha. i think i will never.
sickening.
atrocious.
if i can choose, i don wan to be, at least at this instance.

Today i work until 11pm.
basically just reached home.
The super hot sun makes mi damn moody.
in the daytime, my face is damn black de.
haha.
but everything changes in the night.
he suddenly say to mi 'cashier, some1 wan pay money'
i was damn angry and say 'wad cashier la?'
next i was tokin to ah an n another uncle abt M this n that.
we r tokin abt the past M(history la).
den yz come out to pack the drinks.
den ah an teased him n i .
we were like pretend heard nth and do our own duties.
gt customers want to gt stuff. so i say to him ' yz, lend mi ur pen knife'
he was like ' huh? hw come u noe my name?'

next next, he keep carry carton of drinks to my counter. he ask mi need to scan ma?
den i say don need. i jus key in the price i rmbed.
he was like sayin 'wow, so pro'
den i replied 'den? this must rmbed de ar!'
den we stared n silence.
we tok v little but he damn funny. haha.

ah hua asked him abt jie-de lian. he was like so panic and say something like don mind. i abt to laugh out seeing his silly reaction.
haha. omg. so funny.

oya, cindy bought us lots of sushis. WOW! tnx dear. haha
but y don have salmon de? hahaha. i love u so much la.
i didnt eat b4 work, cindy buy waffle n bubble tea for mi lol.
under such hot day, i longing for bubble tea.
i was like, hw come u noe i wan tt?
haha. so happy.tnx cin.
all my friends love mi.
=)

my mind is in a mess.
im nt glowing?
tts wad all ppl thinks?
feel hurt but a mixed feeling.
i always thought i am really confident but ppl say im cold n nt confident at all.
a mess of feelin.
i WAN to GLOw. i wan to.
i always thought i m but m i?
haha. messy messy messy.
i repeated 3 time which means im really in a mess mind. haha
some1 save mi pls? tell mi more abt mi.
tell mi more abt hw u feel/think abt mi.
i really need tt.
=)

why do ppl like to say they don have time to do this n that?
its all excuses!
time can be plan by human being.
its just a matter of mentality.
if u don feel like doing so, u will always say no time.
if u very wanting to do so, u will find time for it.
aint i right?
ppl r living in excuses n escaping from reality.
unless the time really crushes.

hmmm. im doing great nowaday.
i don need a men now.
i don need commitment now.
i don need to act now.
i don need to b the 1 tt i dislike.

i am me!
the 1 who r daring.
the 1 who do everything by herself.
the 1 who i like.

times really matter.
it makes mi forget the unwanted love.
it makes mi change to someone i dislike n like.
it makes mi fall for someone else but don dare to commit.
it makes mi gt to noe my friends more.
it brings mi back to reality.
it makes mi lose n gain confidence at the same moment.
it changes mi alot.

im no more the 1 who fantasies alot.
im no more the one who r naive.
im no more the one who only think abt others.
im me.

taking such a long sleep make mi sick.
drowsy.
haha.

JOAN TANG.
there's nothing wrong with mi!.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
I will live proudly .

♥School attended/attending: ♥XNPS , ♥JVSS ,♥ FTC KAPLAN CITY CAMPUS.
♥When was she born?? *20thmarch. *pisces.
♥What is her email address?? *joan_tang88@hotmail.com
She is =perfectionist?
= Good listener?
= quiet?
= friendly?
= ambitious?
= greedy !!( refer to my desire list! )
= sturbborn?

♥ SING
♥ Sleep
♥ Camping
♥ Eat
♥ Watch Youtube
♥ 飞轮海
♥ S.H.E
♥ 古天乐
♥ 林俊杰
♥ 小猪
♥ 偶像剧
♥ 杨晨琳
♥ 东城卫
♥ 贺军祥
♥ 好音乐
♥ Winnie the Pooh
♥ Pigglet
♥ My SEASONS SISTERS
(foong, jing, min and qi)
♥ My FRIENDS
( all who know me!)
♥ My lao pos
( yilin, S.T., cindy, lijing)
♥ My FTC gals!!
(caterine, maxi, mina, liu ye, carol and sukano)
♥ My lao gongs
(yilin)
♥ My Family members
♥ Drink HOT Green tea
♥ SUSHI
♥ Chocolates
♥ Musics
♥ Babies
♥ Aminals
♥ Sports

X Eat Yam
X betrayer
X stalker
X Liar
X Empty promises
X Cold Green Tea
X Loney
X left out
X Insects especially 'xiao qiang'

% jeans skirt
% True love
% Dress
% MORE NEW outfit
% MORE T-shirts
% BOOTS
% High heel
% shade
% a new spectacle
% Yoga lesson
% kick- boxin lesson
% Hip Hop dancing
% japanese lesson
% Pass my CAT n ACCA well
% Score Dinstinction in yr 2008/9
% Being more 'click' wif my friends
% Participate in volunteer work befor 2011
% reduce my weigh to 46kg
% New wallet
% Get a job
% Have a Levis jeans
% Get tanned
% Be more confident
% hair permed
% eyebrow trimmed
% frinch cut
% nokia6288
% video camera
% Perfume
% Get married in 2012
% get a new job