was feeling very uneasy today. don noe y but feeling that something is goin to happen. when ppl toking to mi, i gt a feelin tt theres hidden message. when ppl looking at mi, i feel tt they r ill- mouthing mi. weird. very weird.

hope tt no matter wad thing happen, it will b gd thing.
hope this is part of my changes in luck.
hope this will b my turning point.

M i too over-sensitive or wad i feel is the right situation?
i thought i n my those ftc clicks r gettin better but i somehow feel tt we r nt close at all.towards mi,don dare this, don dare tt. i felt left out. i don noe hw to, wad to chat sometimes. i worry tt becoz im the youngest, they will don like it o wad.
i rather 'dao' wif this clicks.i oso don noe y?
maybe nth in common.
maybe don dare to open.
wad r friends?
the more i don understand.
haha. so lifeless.
if ur come across to view this, i meant nth/no harm. Just wanna empty my today feeling.



m i really tt 'dao'?
haha.

even ppl say guys r afraid of mi.
haha. hw i look? i look nan kan o wad?
y must afraid of mi?
stupid!!!
i so mad n angry!!!

Y must he closed all my doors n blocked all 'exits'?
Y must he put mi in a maze?
change point? BUt cant my change point b other stuff?

is he really with mi? beside mi?
i cant heart felt his existence!

all ppl seems to be lyin to mi.
i once thought i can belive this mortal in wad he saying, but now i in doubt.

Y can i predict things so easily but nt stuff of mine?
ahaha. wad a joke!
life is a joke to mi.
bring mi to the world but i feel my existence is nth at all.

i wont named myself a failure because im NOT.
yst my buddy say i do make a different in her.
den who is the 1 who make a different in mi?
2 yrs of 'downpour' make mi lost myself.
make mi lost all my confident.
make mi nobody.

im seaching for mi.
but the outcome is i searched a differnt mi.
i searched the emo mi.
i searched the detestable mi.
when? when will i be able to find the mi tt i want, tt my friends know?
at hm, im mi.
at outside, im nt mi.
haha.

=)

i failed all my 3 paper terribly. haha.
i feel so predicted. hahah.
haha.
this comin dec i takin 5 module at 1 go. omg.
i already forgotten the previous 3 pp.
vexed.
this 2 yrs was full of 'downs'.
so vexed.
hhaa.

i've cut my hair at cityhall on the 18/8.
haha. look better den the last haircut.
hmmm. hahha.

later at 4pm, i will b gettin my dec exam online. but later still gt class on. im so WORRY!! really hope i can PASS. i just lokin 4ward for a pass n nth else. haha

wish mi gd luck. hahah.

This is a nice song.
fen kai yi hou.
hhaaa.

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show. You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything. While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery. Designer match: Gucci Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

People Envy Your Energy

You've got the drive and determination to keep your life in order, and you are on track to be a huge success. People tend to envy all you've got in life, but they don't understand the work that goes behind it!

Your Love Type: INFJ

The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship. For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in. However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem. You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious. However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it! You get along well with: The Index Finger Stay away from: The Pinky

Again, i fall down.
yst was so torturing.
my pms cause my tummy extreme in pain.
my headach abt to explode.
my throat waas burning.
dizzy.

at tt very moment, memories will b un-buried.
all memories will appear in front.
such a torture.
nw still feel terrible.

today,tuesdaya busy day at work. nit time, suddenly theres alot ppl.
hmmm. im tired. yet nw i doin my report.
but i somehow love being busy . but i missed alot. missed the readin alvin do today. haha. actually i oso don noe wad to ask. naybe someday i shall ask another person.

if i can have a power, i wan to travel ard at different dimension. want to went back the past n go forward to future. haha!

thurs, i work at 1-6pm. sianz. haha.

i m learning to live more only myself. tt sound more like isolating myself. haha. maybe jus don think too much . haha.

=)

Why can i still smile like nothing when im feeling so unhappy?
why cant i feel any happiness when im alone by myself?
Did the god hear my prayer; my wishes; my hope?
Did my angel hear my inner speaking?
Have they left me out?
have they forgotten my existence?
please, please pamper mi more. im afraid of being alone; being left out.
please listen to mi. i need u. I ned u to b ard but please don tied mi up.

cant my heart and brain leave mi alone? they making mi rather pissed off.
leave mi alone.

im afraid of being alone but i hate bein pester.

im nt happy but i smiled.so fake smile.

sometimes, hate. sometimes, love. No idea why.

jing, u point the right guy tt time but i n him wont b able.
its just havin a crush becoz he is a guy. haha.
please don talk abt it le.
he isnt the type i wan. +)

JOAN TANG.
there's nothing wrong with mi!.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
I will live proudly .

♥School attended/attending: ♥XNPS , ♥JVSS ,♥ FTC KAPLAN CITY CAMPUS.
♥When was she born?? *20thmarch. *pisces.
♥What is her email address?? *joan_tang88@hotmail.com
She is =perfectionist?
= Good listener?
= quiet?
= friendly?
= ambitious?
= greedy !!( refer to my desire list! )
= sturbborn?

♥ SING
♥ Sleep
♥ Camping
♥ Eat
♥ Watch Youtube
♥ 飞轮海
♥ S.H.E
♥ 古天乐
♥ 林俊杰
♥ 小猪
♥ 偶像剧
♥ 杨晨琳
♥ 东城卫
♥ 贺军祥
♥ 好音乐
♥ Winnie the Pooh
♥ Pigglet
♥ My SEASONS SISTERS
(foong, jing, min and qi)
♥ My FRIENDS
( all who know me!)
♥ My lao pos
( yilin, S.T., cindy, lijing)
♥ My FTC gals!!
(caterine, maxi, mina, liu ye, carol and sukano)
♥ My lao gongs
(yilin)
♥ My Family members
♥ Drink HOT Green tea
♥ SUSHI
♥ Chocolates
♥ Musics
♥ Babies
♥ Aminals
♥ Sports

X Eat Yam
X betrayer
X stalker
X Liar
X Empty promises
X Cold Green Tea
X Loney
X left out
X Insects especially 'xiao qiang'

% jeans skirt
% True love
% Dress
% MORE NEW outfit
% MORE T-shirts
% BOOTS
% High heel
% shade
% a new spectacle
% Yoga lesson
% kick- boxin lesson
% Hip Hop dancing
% japanese lesson
% Pass my CAT n ACCA well
% Score Dinstinction in yr 2008/9
% Being more 'click' wif my friends
% Participate in volunteer work befor 2011
% reduce my weigh to 46kg
% New wallet
% Get a job
% Have a Levis jeans
% Get tanned
% Be more confident
% hair permed
% eyebrow trimmed
% frinch cut
% nokia6288
% video camera
% Perfume
% Get married in 2012
% get a new job