after watchin this i finally understand why i love this song so much. =)

wad a busy week. wed nit i slp over in hospital , fri i went there at 7am. tired till break out. BUT i really hope my grand can recover faster. i please the god to let my grand recover faster.

today i nt goin over to the hosp. today gt alot of ppl there, so i goin to work ltr.

goin to work, means gt to c them. they guessing is rit, i was angry abt them. but nw isnt a time for mi to angry abt any1. so i heck care. if they wanna say , i listen. if nt, i heck care n pretend i noe nth. but for me, i will feel left out inside but they have the rit to make those a secret.

c ya. for any1 who saw my entry, pls together wish my grandma to recover faster. tnx.

omg, feel more angry today den yst.
i thought i will simmer down but the flame seems to grow.
maybe 1 day, they will find out tt i gt to hate them.
NO!!! i must nt hate any1. i will try to simmer down.

friends for long doesnt mean anything.
friends tt r open to eachother will stay long.
but i will nt open abt who im referin to above.
i dislike to named the person i goin to hate.

rest assure, wad i mean does nt refer to any of seasons.
seasons r open to eachother, they r open to mi at least tts wad i think.
tt kind of bond n friendship is unbreakable.
mayb we will quarrel sometimes, but we r sisters. sisters for life.
tts the only thing im glad of.
we knew eachother for only abt 7yrs, we do changed somehow, but the 'shadows' still there. the willingness to noe more abt eachothers still there. its even gettin stronger den b4. haha. i love seasons. at least i love them nw.

i miss my pri sch friends. i miss ying jie , eranthe n wei ting. to me, they r true abt our friendship. for this im certain. for the others i noe they treasure our every together in the past, i miss them too. i hope to noe them more den b4.

friendship. hypocrite. unopenness.

by gone.

FAKER FAKER FAKER.
when i repeat thrice, i mean i really very angry.
hw can i faced them?
ohh... fuming.

speechless. this time may take weeks to cool down.

friends? buddies? sisters?
wad r they actually?
i m getting lost.
cant find any definition.

some will only need u when they feel bored, throw u aside when they found new clicks.
some treasure u like god, backstabbed u when u unnoticed.
some wanna break the chain of friendship ard u.to make u unpopular.
haha.

love? crush? soulmate?
wad r they now?

some just hope tt theres som1 beside n only wan to b love.
some keep everything away from the party n being selfish.
some jus wanna have sex, don wan commitment.
hahah.

how i wish i can find at least 1 'lao po'. some1 who understands mi. some1 who will correct mi. some1 who dare to say im wrong. haha

how i wish i can find my prince/knight. who can/will motivates mi. who can lend mi a helpin hand when im down. who adore mi n love mi. I must also love him. haha.
im nt despo. its jus tt im really very tired in life. i lost my motivation from no where. now,i tired n wanna to b selfish. i don wan any any promises, i jus need a shoulder for mi to rest. haha..

now, i have learn to b selfish. last time i never wana to b selfish but i shouldered too many things. im tired.

in the past i never thought of any love, any true friendship. i always thought im a nobody. i even thought of endin my life ealier when i no more can move on. i always put on a independent mask.

recently, i thought alot. theres admire, theres sisters n friends.
the feelin is so unrealistic. no idea why. im scared to step forward. scared to confide. haha

now, im nowhere again. theres no confident n energy left for mi to move on.tired.
its not tt i think alot. but im really tired. feel like slpin n nt wakin up. haha. im nt negative but really tired.

gtg to work.

hw do i look in this outfit?
i do feel tt im wearing pyjamas. haha.
after my pay n collection of debts, i MUST buy more outfit.
haha.. comment on my attire above. haha.

i feel tt my friends drifting apart. sometimes i do feel 'un-click' wif them. y? i gt no idea. haha. i do feel loney. but hw? i feel real tired. mentally n physically.
living is so tiring. haha.

today is mq bday.happy bday.
2 days later, jing bday. happy bday.

=)

had exam last week. prepared alot but there was a sense of disapointment. haha.
sometimes do think tt im the one making my life miseable. y don i lead my life like normal youngster. Y must i choose to lead this way. hahah. im sturborn. Very indeed.

i had a continuous working days. worked from sat to mon. Tired. But on tue goin Kbox, so its ok. haha. Today didnt go gym, cin n i too tired le. haha. this week is another busy week for mi. monday workin, tuesday kbox, wednesday seasons outing, thursday working, friday movie wif cin, sat working.......etc. WOW. Meeting all those long lost appointments. haha.

yst i watched [ why why why love] This is a nice drama. mike is so suave. kingone oso. rainie so pretty. seems to like them alot nw.N oso [corner wif love] cant wait to watch the last ep. waiting for the drama [ KO one family] hahaa..

OH MY GOD, i have not buy {SHE PLAY}. i wanna buy. hhaa. C when free den shall go buy. hahah.

erm. hmm. update u ppl again.

This song n mv is super.
dadong- my lg is so shuai.
the main issue is tt this song shows wad i wanna say to jiashen.
tnx for his tender.
=)

JOAN TANG.
there's nothing wrong with mi!.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
I will live proudly .

♥School attended/attending: ♥XNPS , ♥JVSS ,♥ FTC KAPLAN CITY CAMPUS.
♥When was she born?? *20thmarch. *pisces.
♥What is her email address?? *joan_tang88@hotmail.com
She is =perfectionist?
= Good listener?
= quiet?
= friendly?
= ambitious?
= greedy !!( refer to my desire list! )
= sturbborn?

♥ SING
♥ Sleep
♥ Camping
♥ Eat
♥ Watch Youtube
♥ 飞轮海
♥ S.H.E
♥ 古天乐
♥ 林俊杰
♥ 小猪
♥ 偶像剧
♥ 杨晨琳
♥ 东城卫
♥ 贺军祥
♥ 好音乐
♥ Winnie the Pooh
♥ Pigglet
♥ My SEASONS SISTERS
(foong, jing, min and qi)
♥ My FRIENDS
( all who know me!)
♥ My lao pos
( yilin, S.T., cindy, lijing)
♥ My FTC gals!!
(caterine, maxi, mina, liu ye, carol and sukano)
♥ My lao gongs
(yilin)
♥ My Family members
♥ Drink HOT Green tea
♥ SUSHI
♥ Chocolates
♥ Musics
♥ Babies
♥ Aminals
♥ Sports

X Eat Yam
X betrayer
X stalker
X Liar
X Empty promises
X Cold Green Tea
X Loney
X left out
X Insects especially 'xiao qiang'

% jeans skirt
% True love
% Dress
% MORE NEW outfit
% MORE T-shirts
% BOOTS
% High heel
% shade
% a new spectacle
% Yoga lesson
% kick- boxin lesson
% Hip Hop dancing
% japanese lesson
% Pass my CAT n ACCA well
% Score Dinstinction in yr 2008/9
% Being more 'click' wif my friends
% Participate in volunteer work befor 2011
% reduce my weigh to 46kg
% New wallet
% Get a job
% Have a Levis jeans
% Get tanned
% Be more confident
% hair permed
% eyebrow trimmed
% frinch cut
% nokia6288
% video camera
% Perfume
% Get married in 2012
% get a new job