y must i b in the middle? y m i becomin the betrayer?

in primary sch , im the middle person of my 2 besties.
nw im in the middle again. I scared of being in the middle. im really scared.
in primary sch, i stop my 2 besties by askin both to slap mi. they don willing to. In the end , we dissolve everything n be best buddy again. Now, im burden wif too many things n don wish to b burden again.But when i noe im in the middle again, i cried. i cant take it. i hate this feelin being in the middle, being misunderstood.
If let mi choose , let mi go.
im a failure in love matter, friendship matter n decisions.
god, let mi go.
im tired.
cant breathe.

i wanna tnx st, she say NO to mi. She will always b there when im cryin.tnx babe.
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JOAN TANG.
there's nothing wrong with mi!.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
I will live proudly .

♥School attended/attending: ♥XNPS , ♥JVSS ,♥ FTC KAPLAN CITY CAMPUS.
♥When was she born?? *20thmarch. *pisces.
♥What is her email address?? *joan_tang88@hotmail.com
She is =perfectionist?
= Good listener?
= quiet?
= friendly?
= ambitious?
= greedy !!( refer to my desire list! )
= sturbborn?

♥ SING
♥ Sleep
♥ Camping
♥ Eat
♥ Watch Youtube
♥ 飞轮海
♥ S.H.E
♥ 古天乐
♥ 林俊杰
♥ 小猪
♥ 偶像剧
♥ 杨晨琳
♥ 东城卫
♥ 贺军祥
♥ 好音乐
♥ Winnie the Pooh
♥ Pigglet
♥ My SEASONS SISTERS
(foong, jing, min and qi)
♥ My FRIENDS
( all who know me!)
♥ My lao pos
( yilin, S.T., cindy, lijing)
♥ My FTC gals!!
(caterine, maxi, mina, liu ye, carol and sukano)
♥ My lao gongs
(yilin)
♥ My Family members
♥ Drink HOT Green tea
♥ SUSHI
♥ Chocolates
♥ Musics
♥ Babies
♥ Aminals
♥ Sports

X Eat Yam
X betrayer
X stalker
X Liar
X Empty promises
X Cold Green Tea
X Loney
X left out
X Insects especially 'xiao qiang'

% jeans skirt
% True love
% Dress
% MORE NEW outfit
% MORE T-shirts
% BOOTS
% High heel
% shade
% a new spectacle
% Yoga lesson
% kick- boxin lesson
% Hip Hop dancing
% japanese lesson
% Pass my CAT n ACCA well
% Score Dinstinction in yr 2008/9
% Being more 'click' wif my friends
% Participate in volunteer work befor 2011
% reduce my weigh to 46kg
% New wallet
% Get a job
% Have a Levis jeans
% Get tanned
% Be more confident
% hair permed
% eyebrow trimmed
% frinch cut
% nokia6288
% video camera
% Perfume
% Get married in 2012
% get a new job