negative mi!
what is the reason i was born?
whats my future be like?
im tired of living in such a mist.
im tired of this n that.
wads my reponsibility here?

exam commence on 3rd dec.
end at 12 dec.
jia you to the extreme.

hmmm. rached hm at abt 12am.
my brother ask mi to drink 'red bull'.
i tried.
den u noe wad? i ended up cant sleep the whole nite.
yawning but cant fall sleep.
...
this symtons apply oso when i drink coffee.
haha.
...
yst during work, i was so jealous when yz show mi a msg from his 'gal sex friend'.
he ask mi wad the msg meant.
i was so .......lol.
den i msg him to show i care.
he den reply mi he havin fever.
i was like so damn angry but cant help due to he is sick.
so i tell him to rest well n he tnx mi n i don feel like replyin him.
den when i dismiss from work at ard 11pm, he msged mi to ask mi go home early.
wad makes him so care of wad time i go home?
...
he show he cares but he acted heck care!!!
i was like so flaming with fire.
i decided to .........!
we shall see.
tts his final chance if he really do cares abt mi.

i noe its just a msg but must he act like the msg is makin him so happy???
...
cant sleep lol.
i go watch romantic princess den study ba!!!

yst was yz bday.
we gave him a Tee.
haha.
he looked 'pai seh' n touched! haha
yst he shocked mi when he hold onto mine.
i shivered!!...

I RMBED i said i wanna give up but he have moved more futher up on.
actually im abit touched.
the way we look at eachothers make ppl tot tt we r already a pair.
but 'bu ke nan de la'

i finally know the reason why he hold back.
becoz of qualification.
haha.
in his mind, he is oni 'O' grad n im a degree grad.
he tot alot. he tot abt marriage n etc.
i was stunned. haha
actually, tts was also wad i mind. haha.

exam in less than a mth.
5 module.
oni 2 completed in rev.
finances is my main prob.
hope i can faster complete my rev.
hahahaaa. jia you!!!!

cough n cough n cough.
so breathless.
even cough out blood strain.
lost my voice , cant sing.

wake up early, sleep early.
slp every after my med. (due to drowsiness)
my patience was always very gd.
but this 2 days i lost temper very easily.
yst i treated yz rather bad in sms n call.
today i didnt acc cindy before work.
so sorry. im really sorry.

sometimes i think can i end this.
haha.
my ans is i cant.
i still have nt meet my destined partner.
i still have nt buy enough .
i still have nt meet more friends.
i still have nt eat enough delicate.
i still wan live on even im tired of everythings.
haha.

past 2 days, maxi ask mi abt yz . i said i giving up.
den she said 1 things tt touches mi so much.
she said ;" cat n she hope tt i can find some1 tt can dote mi!"
im touched. really touched.
im so happy tt i know them.
i love them so much. i love this 2 sisters of mine so much.
nt forgettin mina n liu ye n sukano n carol.
i love them all so much tt i cant bear left them.

i must study hard n move on together with them.
tts my motivation.
=)

hmmm. fl, im really ok la.
im the 1 declare 'game over'.
im tired of guessin here n there.
im tired of can only c improvent when he knew i gt angry.
btw he didnt open his mouth n say he likes mi. he never.
maybe i think too much ba.
有感觉 not equal to喜欢。
u understand?
haha

gt fever n cold.
so sick. later goin work at 5pm to 11 pm lo.
don feel like goin. haha

today i wake up q early. wake at 6.30am. haha.
feelin dizzy.
haha

hmm... tell u wad i giving yz up.
but i 'bu she de leh'. haha.
heard from others tt he gt gf le.
when i asked him he was like so angry askin who say de.
so angry for wad. but he didnt agree nor deny.
im tired of guessing.
i n him was like temperature.
sometimes so sweet n 'hot', sometimes so cold. haha
my 'mei li wu fa dang', giving him up oso meant nth lo.
haha.

today yz was so fierce lo.
i don dare to tok to him.
while working, tt 21 guy keep disturbing mi lo.
den yz looked so weird lo.
don noe wad these guys r thinkin la.
at 1 glance i n yz smile to eachother so sweetly tt feel like we r couple. haha.

after work, yz msg mi.
‘他跟你很好噢。’
den i say ’谁?’
den he say 'nth'
den i ask '为什么你今天表情怪怪的？’
den he say '吃醋'
den i ask '为什么吃醋'
den he say'因为不懂要吃什么'
den i called him. he sound weird.
when i tok abt tt 21 guy , he say he abt to fall asleep.
den i ask abt the outing we say before.
den he say see first lo. i was so angry lo.
den he say wanna slp. de nwe ended our call.

i ask cin n jie. they say its obvious he is jealous.
was he?
i don noe leh.

有感觉= 喜欢吗？
he only tell mi gt feelin .
does tt equal to like?

y always need to guess here n there.
cant it b direct?
so tired.
hope he will b great tml.
haha.

M i very bad?
he ask mi whether i like him. first time he asked so directly.
But my reply is tt it isnt like but comfort.
M i pushing him further? haha.
he was like so sad n went to slp so tt early just nw.
Did i hurt him?
i don meant it.
who ask him doin things tt i cant b hinted on?
he rmbed my every action n words but for wad when he insist he is nt gd.
i today even send him friendship forward msg.
den he called. we tok.
weird.haha. i feel nth but afraid he gt hurt.
which means i don really likes him?
i don noe really don noe.
feelin tired. lets nature takes it place ba.

this morning i was abt to doze off in lesson.
i think yvonne saw lo. my eyes really close up n slept abt 3sec.
hehe. im really tired.

after class, went far east wif maxi n cat.
we ate at 'hans' n shop n photo takin at my fav place- tiolet. haha.
walk walk walk talk talk talk.
really enjoy.
but i didnt gt any stuff. too tired to think.
only cat bought a long pants.haha.
den went home.
haha.

JOAN TANG.
there's nothing wrong with mi!.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
I will live proudly .

♥School attended/attending: ♥XNPS , ♥JVSS ,♥ FTC KAPLAN CITY CAMPUS.
♥When was she born?? *20thmarch. *pisces.
♥What is her email address?? *joan_tang88@hotmail.com
She is =perfectionist?
= Good listener?
= quiet?
= friendly?
= ambitious?
= greedy !!( refer to my desire list! )
= sturbborn?

♥ SING
♥ Sleep
♥ Camping
♥ Eat
♥ Watch Youtube
♥ 飞轮海
♥ S.H.E
♥ 古天乐
♥ 林俊杰
♥ 小猪
♥ 偶像剧
♥ 杨晨琳
♥ 东城卫
♥ 贺军祥
♥ 好音乐
♥ Winnie the Pooh
♥ Pigglet
♥ My SEASONS SISTERS
(foong, jing, min and qi)
♥ My FRIENDS
( all who know me!)
♥ My lao pos
( yilin, S.T., cindy, lijing)
♥ My FTC gals!!
(caterine, maxi, mina, liu ye, carol and sukano)
♥ My lao gongs
(yilin)
♥ My Family members
♥ Drink HOT Green tea
♥ SUSHI
♥ Chocolates
♥ Musics
♥ Babies
♥ Aminals
♥ Sports

X Eat Yam
X betrayer
X stalker
X Liar
X Empty promises
X Cold Green Tea
X Loney
X left out
X Insects especially 'xiao qiang'

% jeans skirt
% True love
% Dress
% MORE NEW outfit
% MORE T-shirts
% BOOTS
% High heel
% shade
% a new spectacle
% Yoga lesson
% kick- boxin lesson
% Hip Hop dancing
% japanese lesson
% Pass my CAT n ACCA well
% Score Dinstinction in yr 2008/9
% Being more 'click' wif my friends
% Participate in volunteer work befor 2011
% reduce my weigh to 46kg
% New wallet
% Get a job
% Have a Levis jeans
% Get tanned
% Be more confident
% hair permed
% eyebrow trimmed
% frinch cut
% nokia6288
% video camera
% Perfume
% Get married in 2012
% get a new job